BLEACH

2012-01-27T01:55:00.002+08:00

ah it's january. i think i think i think that i've been so very busy with various things that i don't actually have time to slack around. miss sem 1 days. carefree and really too free. but on the other hand yayness to cactus. hopefully will do well. and honestly speaking i'm very worried that people can't see me in the performance. as much as i say i'll be visible no matter where i stand, i really do want to perform as one of the main dancers. well, we'll see in the future shall we? should go sleep already. 830am lecture tomorrow. D:

and really i wonder whether any of my new found friends actually managed to find this blog. i really somehow like to rant excessively here and emo excessively here. feels like a good place to vent out any unspoken feelings and to not have anyone judge/be affected by what i say. at least i don't say it directly to people right?

running man is addictive. stupendously addictive. yoo jae suk jjang!!

2011-12-25T02:18:00.002+08:00

christmas eve spent at the flea. it was good. after flea was good too. midnight was even better i thought. i don't think i've had a significant xmas eve since don't know when. thanks em (: really the rain makes everything prettier. rain at night makes things alot prettier somehow.

second last line of la dispute, andria

2011-12-19T04:14:00.002+08:00

at 414am i highly doubt i'll be making much sense while typing this. but i suppose it has come to a point that this is the only 'safe' zone to post about anything sentimental without many people knowing. in fact i hardly doubt anyone will visit this site after my super long hiatus. unintended. actually there have been many unspoken words.

basically just mentally exhausted from the circles i've been making. i liked to take down the details of every single thing but i realised it's really not helping me make a quick exit from the neverending joy and suffering. ironic i know. it's too much to reveal here i think. please just don't ask me what's it about. i've confided in the people who i trust enough about it. yes it sickens me that i'm wallowing in self pity and that my goals and desires which i took 20 years to decide simply crumbled. you'd think i don't care about it but apparently nature is making me care about it. things i fail to notice in the past. goodness. i swear it is because everyone else is moving on to the next phase in life while i'm still stuck in the previous. what's wrong with the past? i like the carefreeness, the freedom. yea i'm the free soul that can't be tamed. feels like i'm being set backwards in my thinking with regards to this.

yes i'm sort of at my wits' end in this situation. i know my options. i know i can let go but i'm reluctant to. someone just shoot me for doing so. till then, i'll just have to take hits until i'm immuned or numb entirely. i really don't have the rights to...

2011-12-07T14:29:00.002+08:00

it's been such a long time since i last blogged. really missed some months already. well there's been lots of going out and stuff. trying to focus on studying and going out and stuff. yea well i also don't know what to blog about. life's being a bitch sometimes. with all the ups and downs. and i have to say this sem has been the most eventful. all the news about people.

i kinda really miss not having much to think about. not having to miss stuff.

2011-10-23T01:17:00.000+08:00

it'll be nice if i crossed your mind

2011-09-05T20:55:00.003+08:00

just a random thought, i was just looking through all the pictures and all that and it made me think of how i met various people. and as much as i'm being teased of going to camps for ulterior motives (but honestly it's because i don't want to stay at home and yes i know you guys are kidding. how can i not know that? friends for going 8 years already!) i'm damn glad to have met various people through camps. like cheryl, dishi, anand, my chess camp og (including the crashers lah right). also joining rag meeting lots of awesome people (hah mainly the guys but come on lah i dance with them) jason, dallan, yixuan, gwen, brenda, yanxin, joanne. the people who really bring smiles to my face when i meet them. somehow even if i'm in a bad mood, meeting them makes my day alot better.

2011-09-03T09:55:00.002+08:00

there has been many things going on in my life. most of which i can't really type out here. but that's not the main thing about this post i suppose. it's just more like how i'm feeling. (as usual) i really think there's just nothing but to mature out of it? to not get so distracted by it that i cannot fully concentrate during lectures. and yes i should really grow out of it. it's not as if i can do anything about it but to patiently wait until the problem solves itself / someone solves the problem. (hah apparently there has been alot of things going through my mind) so in this sense i'm glad to have things to think about so that i won't think about the disappointment i had when i didn't get through the auditions. but then again, it just means i have to work harder/i'm just not made for it? ah well, i'm really just ranting on and on, talking to myself over here, trying to make sense of it all. more importantly i hope this period goes past soon. i really can't concentrate at home much or actually pretty much anywhere at this point. maybe in school it'll be abit better. yes i should really learn how to not get THAT affected

2011-08-16T21:10:00.002+08:00

i think i've been procrastinating alot about typing this post. maybe because i don't really want to admit that it's the end and maybe because i just don't think i'm ever good with words or anything mushy. but i have to say rag has been an awesome experience and everytime i watch the video of our performance truly felt proud being in engineering. it is definitely a memory i treasure very much.

i'm pretty sure we all came in thinking we're just going to have fun, put up a performance end of story. well at least i did. but i've come to realise it wasn't the case. we all had to commit, go MIA during outings, go home late and have our parents nagging. practices got to the point when we're basically doing the same thing over and over again until the rag comm was happy. deep down with every run, or actually more specifically to the criticisms, i feel more and more driven to put my best effort during the runs so as to not disappoint and to improve from the previous run. it became more of not letting myself down and being satisfied with my own performance than to gain approval from whoever watching. i suppose that was why i was able to continue the repetition as much as i was getting sick of it. i really wanted a fantastic performance and i wanted to leave the dance floor without any regrets.

it was also the company that kept me there. i vividly remember masu and i agreeing a year ago after we saw the rag performance of 2010. 'we must join rag next year.' that's what we both said. i truly admired the raggers for what they did last year and for their unity. i felt inspired. it was imperfect of course but i could feel their hard work and spirit and i wanted very badly to be part of it. indeed i met a bunch of awesome hardworking (no surprise there) engineers. they weren't good at dancing (no offense) but they truly put in their best and worked hard to clean up their steps. (i still remember watching you guys cleaning at ea from the pavillion when we were learning the finale dance) you guys really helped each other as much as possible so that joanne and vic didn't have to clean up as much. all the jokes we made, the runs when we started doing each other's choreo. (: also cheer side when i overheard about the +1 -1 system and when i saw the change from fun fun non-stop OHMY GAOWEI to total focus on getting all the stunts up. truly admire how determined you guys were. despite all the falls and injuries, when all the stunts went up on the actual day, i suppose there's nothing but damn good job. and our costume designers! really thanks so very much for the awesome costumes and making us stand out from the crowd. everyone remembered us for the orange pants. the striking makeup. the skirts the really made the turns look awesome. (i know excessive use of awesome but really AWESOME) and i really need to thank you guys for the resourcefulness when there wasnt enough tape for my costume. black duct tape (: and i really think we look damn good else how did we get stopped for pictures just from walking to marina bay link mall? yes of course not forgetting the float side. the so called most chill job? i think they were really the best. spending countless of sleepless nights building the float (which till now i still think could have beat law's handsdown) and just detailing it to make it as perfect as possible. i don't think i'll be able to understand how you all managed to go down every single day from morning till night just working on it. when i asked anand why he continued, (think it was a couple of weeks before actual rag and while i was getting a ride (: ) i was really expecting either a long and extensive list of crappy reasons (yes i'm too used to you giving me some crappy stuff) or something along the lines of 'because he stay, i stay'. 'because i started already, i should finish it' that was the only reason he gave me. i don't know about other people but i really really really look up to him because of that. i truly give my heartfelt gratitude to the builders. amazing job on the float.

which brings me to my biggest regret of not being involved enough. not being bothered enough to really go down outside prac to help out with float or costumes when they needed help.

but i think the moment that i realised that it doesn't even matter whether i've spoken to the ragger personally was when during the runs i started running across to get to my position (and probably abit high then) i just wanted to hi5 everyone crossing. they really just whacked and it became a routine eventually. yes hi5s from people who i've barely spoken to. of course the whooshes we did before performances. the end of the performance when we just cheered as we ran off the dance floor. it didn't matter that medicine was before us. it didn't even matter that everyone else thought that we weren't as good as them because we know that we did an effing good job and that we truly bonded as one engin rag team in that defining moment at the end of the performance. i'm sure we, regardless whether from float, costumes, dance, cheer, were all nothing but smiles.

i dare say that we made people regret not joining rag as they did to me last year.

2011-07-17T03:44:00.003+08:00

before i miss out july i figured i should type a quick post at 3:44am. and then this thought just hit me. i have no idea on what to blog about. possibly the most interesting about my life right now would be rag, tagging pictures on facebook. yes the past month went by too too fast for my liking that i'm beginning to forget things and that everything seems to be the same already. too many camps too many new people too many new personal information. it hit me over and over again more frequently during the past week when i was trying to recall what i've been doing 2 weeks ago, trying to remember what various people told me, the outings i have to go to the coming weeks. thank goodness for photos. and because i don't really like to sit somewhere and type out what i've been up to in detail, the best description comes from photos. thank you social networks.

on another note because i've been busy with rag, (and no as many times as people asked me to skip rag i won't because i don't want to catch up/put more work on joanne to teach the people absent and neither do i have an official reason or more like not official in my book) i can't make it for meetups which makes me think about priorities like rag over friends. i think it's pretty reasonable considering i'll only be busy till the end of the month or beginning of the next. no it's not a case of new friends over old. i don't know whether anyone from iron12 will read this but yes i took what janice said seriously eventhough i knew she was just saying. i don't like it when people say i'm the type who will pick friends to hang out more because i'm not. when there's a meetup i'll always try my best to make it. i don't like it when i see pictures of meetups and i'm not there. at least i'll be seeing everyone who's back at least once before they fly off again.

i suppose i'm trying to enjoy all the fops this year as i highly doubt i'll be able to do so the coming 2 summer holidays.

2011-06-19T19:56:00.003+08:00

i still miss germany. i really really miss germany. i wished i stayed there longer to see berlin with the rest. but on the other hand camp was not too bad. met awesome bunch of people except definitely it's a different experience when you're a councillor. you don't get to play the games and stuff. half the time you're at the side. and yes god i had to play dirty games. soy sauce ewww. as i was saying to the rest, i think i can taste myself afterwards. had to pair with ziliang using my back to carry the sponge. totally dirtied my clothes. should have washed it off afterwards with water. but to get them to sing during sp is totally awesome. i will join just to get them to do weird things during sp sessions. so i'm still thinking whether it was the correct choice to come back to singapore right after 3 weeks. i've made a bunch of really cool friends, juniors.

on a side note, i kinda miss the weather, the beer, the breakfast and the potato sticks. i miss potato sticks. they have awesome tidbits there. paprika flavoured. yes i'm definitely going back for a semester. i'm gonna work damn hard just to make my CAP high enough to go for exchange.

2011-06-05T05:17:00.002+08:00

had the best few weeks of my life. really. i'm grateful for the experience and really got very teary-eyed or actually i just cried. gosh. i'm gonna miss my host mum alot. gonna miss everyone alot. think them all leaving at the same time during the abshiedsparty just made me cry. this morning (in german time) teared alot when host mum was sending me off at the hauptbahnhof. last breakfast of brot mit kase und butter. und vanilletee. D: i'm going to go back there somehow someday.

2011-05-01T19:16:00.003+08:00

hmmmmm. i don't think that pap is perfect of course. and of course there's bound to be people left behind and we should not ignore that. but i think that my previous post was more about what i feel. with people bashing pap online. i actually prefer reading a fair comparison between the pap and the opposition. doesn't it appear to be that they're rooting for the opposition because they want to see pap bite it instead of the reason that opposition can do better than pap? so when i say pap should continue leading, i don't mean all 87 seats being filled by them. i want to be convinced wholeheartedly by the opposition before making a decision. personally i also think high pay helps to keep singaporeans from going the private sector. though i have to say it's really alot of money.

on a sidenote, a tag from a human being. don't know when was the last time someone actually tagged. also, to first time readers of my blog, i don't know you, you don't know me. so for your information, i don't even have the ability to vote yet. i might not be seeing the full picture of this (personally i don't listen to every rally) i am just providing another perspective. we shouldn't forget what pap has done eventhough we desire change.

i suppose in the end people are voting for their own interest.

2011-04-30T23:10:00.005+08:00

yes i would like to remain apathetic about politics in singapore. but really there are some things which i believe people should consider about. housing prices, housing itself. personally i think that pap has been doing a good job on it. it should be a known fact to all singaporeans that property values have been rising and the fact that our parents, with relevance to the younger generation, have to pay about 40 to 50 years for their properties. however, do they truly know that properties are in fact going to be for their retirement? is it not in the interest of the government to ensure that our older generation will be able to retire properly?

regarding nicole seah's rally, she mentioned that she's like being in another country when sh ie takes the mrt. i've had the same feeling. and it annoys me likewise. however, shouldn't we first think about how much it costs to hire a singaporean worker. who wants to be doing the job of the foreign workers in the first place? not a singaporean. even if so we'll demand a higher salary. it's a matter of math. investors will take a longer time to recover starting costs. besides, i believe that foreign talent should not be discriminated against. in fact, i think if singaporeans have so much time to whine about foreign talent stealing jobs from them, they should probably go sign up for a training programme instead. we should not be thinking that the government are our nannies and should protect us. it is in the interest of companies to hire first rate workers instead of third rate ones. don't you think it's procrastination that makes us so unsatisfied about not having restrictions on foreign talent? i for one can relate to that. in my course having so many foreigners competing, i find myself struggling and complaining about the influx of foreigners. isn't it just pure jealousy speaking for itself? i would think the better solution to foreign talent would be to 'buck up singaporeans'.

i wonder how many people actually know that our reserves has been the one that has sailed us through the recent economic crisis. and where the heck does our reserves come from? yes from taxes. of course we feel the pinch of the economic crisis. but haven't we been able to tide through it much faster than other countries? our reserves has been used a great deal for it. saving for a rainy day. more like saving for stormy days. definitely i'm also affected by the rising costs of living. yes i do believe that the government can do better in terms of taking care of singapore as a whole and yes i believe that we should have more freedom of speech. but don't you think that the opposition party somehow are too inexperienced? too idealistic/simplistic about the various aspects? their policies appeal to the less fortunate, those who are left behind but don't you think that our country won't progress as well? we must take into consideration other factors before we cast our vote. we must be able to ensure that those elected will address the needs of the people. we must be able to make sure that they will bring results. it is the country we are talking about. we should not vote for the opposition because we are unhappy with the current ruling party.

though i definitely have my reservations with certain candidates of the pap, i believe that they should and will remain the ruling party.

2011-04-26T16:57:00.002+08:00

yet another post from me. exams are over. though there are mistakes which i deeply, i repeat, deeply regret making hopefully the grades won't turn out too badly.

honestly speaking, i don't understand the big deal with having voting rights. and i dare say that most people of my age will say the same. at least that's the case for singapore. you can see students actively involved for a cause, to get their voice out, pushing for change in policies. we all know that that is practically non-existent in singapore. who are we to question the policies made? as much as i would like to say we are mature thinkers, experience will always be what we are lacking. however, does that mean we should be apathetic to the political scene in singapore? yes i believe that nicole seah can represent the voice of the younger generation and her candidancy will definitely urge more people to come forth in the future and make a change to singapore. i am not saying that a government under pap is bad but it is important for someone to bring up the concerns of the public. it may not necessarily be the ones of the general public but those of the minority. with the rapid growth rate of singapore, hasn't the rich poor disparity been brought up several times? is it too idealistic if we were to head towards fulfilling the goal of leaving no man behind? i do not believe that the party change will occur in the near future unless the opposition party is able to strengthen their team. (gosh seriously? marine parade grc because the SM is there? and that the problems arised from SM's era? what's the point of pinpointing and blaming him for the problems that arised from the policies made? we're, or more like i'm more concern about what you are going to do to solve those problems. is it going to be better than what pap has done) if one is to contest, one will need to be eloquent, persuasive and charismatic. i have to say that it sure seems that tin pei ling is going to have it easy. though she might really be as the party members say very hardworking and mature, she hasn't shown it based on the interviews. i'd like to see her have more understanding towards the policies the government has implemented. why is it good? why is it sufficient? i need to be persuaded. has she not considered the points which the opposition party has brought up? i don't believe she's being flamed online purely because of her age, inexperience or personal background. i know they say should give her a chance to see how she does but i'd rather pick nicole seah over tin pei ling as the former seems more promising.

2011-04-24T13:50:00.002+08:00

when something so wrong can be so right. and yet as wrong as it is you want to do the wrong thing instead of the right one. so so subjective. hah if only the same thing can be said about exams. there is only one right answer. why are we so obsessed about grades? it's not as if when you're dead and 6 feet under you're going to bring it with you. not as if the underworld/heaven whichever you believe in is going to be all grades. yes if only i can convince myself that that's the case. but i still have alot of life to live and to live a good life requires a substantial amount of money. money does buy happiness. happiness does not equate to money though. arh whatever, i have an exam tomorrow so what the heck am i doing here typing stuff?

2011-04-21T22:12:00.002+08:00

i don't know why i'm still blogging sometimes when nobody reads. but it's no longer a matter of blogging for people to read is it? it's more to keep focus, keep track of myself. yes as odd as it sounds keep track of myself. i think i'm beginning to become more and more introverted. things that i keep to myself or at least to my close group of friends. you know who you are. the people who i really tell everything to. miss you guys if anyone of you are reading. probably because i'm itching to spill things (: and i know you guys enjoy listening. seriously nosey bunch of people. yes but i think because we've been through thick and thin there's this unbreakable bond between us. *at this point i expect the typical wah nianggggg touched siaaaa

anyway many things coming up the coming week. exams, sleep, probably slack around, sleep. heh. the best thing is that i end the earliest. on tuesday. suck it people! hopefully i'll be able to understand math by then cause right now it's baffering me like last sem. gosh, to think that math used to be the one subject i had the most confidence for.

yes priorities. work is work, play is play. time to work. game face on. i'm not gonna make myself regret for studying harder. eventhough i know damn well i didn't put in much effort throughout the sem, hasn't it always been this way and didn't it always work out well? okay not as well as my sisters but considering how much slacking i do, i'm damn lucky for being smart. and yes because only a few people will be reading this i'm gonna be egoistic. and no i don't want to let my cap slip as much as i know it will this semester. i've been so average that i can't stand it.

2011-04-17T21:38:00.003+08:00

seriously university is stressful. the next time i'm gonna get my exam results is about over a month later. a few days before my birthday. way to ruin it. the few times when i worked hard and didn't get what i expected. sigh. hopefully german will be alright this sem. everything else was okay for it except for semester tests. i should really get my eyes checked and read the question properly next time. gosh.

anyway had demonstration on friday. i swear we were all praying hard that the system worked. and it did much to our delight. miracles happened. it didn't work. then the frames locked but were very unstable. then after the prof told us what went wrong, it worked perfectly. the sound was very clear too. laser link distance was about 3m? hopefully we weren't penalised too much for taking too long to set up.

got the address of the family i'm staying with. quite nervous. i was typing the reply and i pondered to myself how the heck am i going to survive 3 weeks there speaking german. i'm not even with another student. yes i'm going to be alone. though i kinda wished there was someone with me. it'll just be alot better because there's someone there who you can communicate properly to and all. hopefully i don't make too many mistakes and that i will somehow or another be able to tell them what i like what i don't. and i'll have updates here hopefully. i really really hope that there is internet there. i don't wanna have to cycle to an internet cafe everyday just to check facebook or call back home or something.

i can't wait till exams are over. period.

2011-04-10T15:18:00.002+08:00

i used to wonder about how it was to be grown up. then when you finally reach this point, you're thinking 'gosh, nobody taught me how to grow up. what am i supposed to do now?' yes i think i'm at that point that i'm kinda worried. what if 10 years down the road i still remain like when i was 18? yea kinda wanna remain young. not kid, just young. there's the entire world to explore but i don't really wanna explore the entire thing sometimes. it's like how you want to stay in your comfort zone. and now there's just more things to do and to be done. 21 don't come. heck i'm not even ready for 20.

2011-03-17T17:18:00.002+08:00

many things i wanna blog about but many things not convenient to post online. anyway yesterday met up with lirui, peishi, em, aman, fann to catch up on lots of stuff *winks winks* as usual was at hongkong xinwang cafe. i think what truly spoilt the dinner was the waiting and the fact that at the back of my mind i'm effing worried about the deadlines next week. tests and stuff. yea point is that it took 1 hour for the food to arrive. got really cranky after that because we called them alot of times to tell them. but seriously still took them god long time to get our orders done. did get a free dessert though. really good to just sit around and talk about rv what's happening now in our lives and stuff. suddenly they made me miss secondary school alot. think partially because of less stress.

it sucks to feel inferior. sucks to the max. or when you feel something is not reciprocated back. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. yes another emo-ing day.

on a happier note, i'm going to germany this may! (:
watch this space for updates from germany. hopefully will get wifi there

2011-02-22T13:03:00.002+08:00

universal studios yesterday was awesome. one of the best days ever. it was with great company and fun rides. actually i think the company is really what makes the experience. yep, ever since they announced the news of 21st feb, i asked masu whether we should have an outing there and actually went to check whether it was during recess week.

met at 9+ at harbourfront mrt with vic and mx. typical late (you'd think by now i would have learnt to pack my stuff the night before) but thankfully i managed to wake up early enough to give people (erhem you know who you are) morning calls. of which one was particularly funny/cute. anyway back to 9+am, went to macs for breakfast as per usual while we wait for people who had breakfast and one with the uss tickets to come. me and masu were amazed that mervin didn't know his way to macs when we had breakfast there previously for cable ski. not the point but... then left for uss! we were deciding whether to walk or take the train there. i think we all knew that it'll take us about a good hour to get there if we walked. camwhores and the speed that we walk at. self-explanatory. masu being masu, topped up ezlink card and because i noticed, i didn't go pass the gantry first. sorry mx! but because he went through with his ezlink card, it answered the question whether we had to purchase tickets. yes thank you for upgrading. it makes everything alot faster.

yes hell yes. we were at universal studios. got the map of uss and i was genuinely looking to see which one was the map of uss. (in response to comments that i took long) took a few shots with the iconic universal globe structure in front of the theme park before we went in using a4 size tickets which masu printed out. 'golden tickets' had the feeling similar to when i went to everland. the anticipation! yea and i thought we were damn kiddy when we started running to the shorter queues at the side and yes when mervin ran over to my queue cause the ticketing was faster compared to the one vic was at. i swore kid was written all over his face then. posed more at the entrance past the ticket gantries. then we realised that hollywood was big behind us (yes, i forgot how that photo came about until abit later) walked further in. no, i wasn't a fan of the crowd at the entrance, all the tourists. yes, that was not the first time i tried to imitate a tourguide. great weather in the morning. all sun. walked past the fountain and followed the path next to the lake towards scifi. the backyard of new york with the barrels and stuff. yes it was an awesome view with battlestar running! snapped away with the blue blue sky. and we came to the barrel. i tried to do the swimming jump up. 'it's alot lighter' -vic. and no a helping hand from mervin just made me dangle in mid air and sorry vic! think hit you really hard. (take note the number of times i'll be hitting people ACCIDENTALLY) decided to just take the easier way up. the staff was awfully nice. he was quite concerned that we'll fall and helped us get down after helping us take a photo. after which, we finally reached scifi!

battlestar. yes i was nervous but who isn't when you don't know how the ride will be like? and especially after you walked under the net under the roller coaster... because masu was super scared plus haven't sat on a roller coaster before, she wanted to sit on the junior one at far far away but managed to drag her to battlestar human. put our stuff in the lockers and yea the gap between me vic masu's and mervin mx jiayi's was like 5min? they kinda got stuck. first time using. rushed to put the bags from one locker to another during their second time of storing their bags. walked/jogged in the queue. (water coolers every single time i past one. HYDRATE!) just talked about experiences we had on roller coasters. can't own vic's seriously. the media was there. (i suspected later that it wasn't technical fault when masu told me the ministers (?) took the ride also) then started to feel super nervous. sat with jiayi behind the 4. was at the side. i pretended to be freaking out about the grip thingy but i think the staff really thought i meant it. woops. ride was quite underwhelming except for maybe the first drop? i raised my arms during the ride and brushed my hand on jiayi. (SORRY 10x) but yea that's how i gauged. if my legs weren't shaking involuntarily and no slight tearing, it's not scary. discontented, went to cylon after a mad rush to unlock the bags. masu backed out and took care of the lockers when we went to queue. this time i was seriously concerned about the ride cause inverted track. no floor plus loops! but it was damn fun! plunging into the mist and up and cobra roll. too bad it's quite short. the adrenaline rush was good (: was damn psyched for the next ride. rushed to the mummy thingy. along the way i forgot 'floorplan' to describe the queuing part of cylon. yes. i must have been so caught up with the experience. while queuing for mummy, kept playing the clapping game in darkness. was scared my spec fly off so took off. missed most of the visual part of the ride but the drop backwards was cool. and my description ended up being 'ahhh *right* wet wet wet! AHHH *left* hot hot hot!' and i really thought vic was faking her ahhs. yep then went to take the most lame ride ever. yes i was faked being scared because it was really ==. i think i was way more entertaining than the ride. tried to bluff the guys to ride it. BROMANCE TTM! they got our bags *guilts* and restroom break. mervin mentioned the toilet has a permanent cleaner inside. was amazed. tough job. he went to puke, the girls went to touch up. (omits the comment i made) camwhored at egypt with the statues before going back to cylon this time with masu and without the guys. second time was really just pure fun. had my eyes opened the entire time. caught the upside down etc. awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. then went to find our dads before hanging our bags on them to go for another round of mummy. (pun unintended) specs on. managed to catch everything plus i smiled the entire way of the roller coaster part. it was literally pasted. (blames masu for saying must pose for picture hor!) finally moved out of egypt (after more photos with tall and 'hot' people)

lunched at far far away because wanted seats and aircon else we would have settled for fossil fuel. passed the entire of lost world. ran for donkey's show. so hilarious getting married there and then. i would say a very very good memory for the couple unless they really break up. how many times do you get to be married by donkey? and i haven't lost my touch for donkey says (: came out and saw puss in boots! so fluffy! he was so gentlemanly to vic. kissed her hand and all. and not so to mervin for trying to do something to him (steal his sword or his hat?) went into a fastfood restaurant. the house of the 3 bears? the most expensive fastfood i've eaten. all of us had to wash our hands again after the sweaty grip in mummy. the food was quite nice. (it better be for 10.80) my brilliant idea for solidifying mx's chocolate under vic's slush. worked! but was such a laugh. then did the crossed eye stuff. i maintain that i'm lousy at that. really should make it our profile pic. went back out into the hot sun and back to lost world. walked around the place looking at dinosaurs and more like looking out for the ride we saw at egypt. found a v funny t-rex skeleton head with bendable teeth. dads went off and we went to queue for the ride. at first we were still worrying about who should sit in front and at the back cause we doubt that we're going to take it again. technical faults made the queue super short and being rather tired at this point, we just chilled there planning where we should go next. feels like a good half an hour before the ride was back up. underwhelmed again. jiayi went 'that's all?!' got another round swapped positions.the view is really quite good up. too bad it was too short. rushed to meet the guys at water world. (they were still at hollywood when i called them at the place) ponchos on and the actors were super good at psyching the crowd and getting them wet. show was filled with gunfires and i'm immensely impressed by jetski coming from underwater. should go watch again. unfortunately eventhough we were sitting at the soak zone, we weren't soaked. but we were getting wet inside because it was so hot. since ponchos on, rapids adventure!. kept playing around with the wind getting the poncho super poofy. masu started pulling ponchos up. yea yea as if you can't see anything already. transparent poncho! nonstop panicking to keep stuff dry and really felt self conscious when the guys were super bemused by my expression. try not panicking when your poncho tore during the first rapid. thought the highlight of it was when we went into literally pitch black darkness and got lifted up. i kept thinking something will drop on us so bent over. yes it was cool that there was a slide. solves the question of why everyone was wet when they got off the ride. 'my ass is getting wet!' 'i'm standing up to not get my pants wet' LOL. then the kids went to get soft toys while we kept our ponchos thinking we still had time for another round to analyse when what came out etc. gosh you'd never think jiayi and mervin loved soft toys so much. smashed the serious impression i got! tsk tsk tsk. i was more intrigued by the operating mouth of dinosaur thingy. an entire convo on soft toys. totally should have recorded it.

finally at about 5+ went to far far away. uss opened at 10 and yes we only finished half the park at 5+. shrek 4d was not bad but not as good as the other one at sentosa. that was alot scarier. me and mervin just covered our necks with jiayi beside me 'it's quite nice what' after which went to the junior roller coaster. i swear if we started with riding that i would have been so ==, but at this point it's just v chill. wanted to sit at the front but it was taken up by people both times. yea mx acted scared for the second time. fancy that. when he really got jelly legs on battlestar. yep it was so cute cause we went out and back in again such that the people on the ride recognised us. then to madagascar. merry-go-round. at this point we're just really tired. got a relatively high seat. 'eh why yours so high?' yes mervin and jiayi some people are just meant to be taller (: the penguin is so cute. sat on it 3 times. then finally got off after posing much on it. rushed to the last show of monster rock! quite good. they had really good songs like nobody, low, round, provocative, it's my life. maybe vic was absorbing it for rag inspiration (: then went out to find ourselves going to try on hats. didn't try on much. really just absorbing everything in. scenery and all. oldies performed by the male 'servers' of the diner. the guys were more interested in the female one. (missed it along with shrek and fiona while waiting for technical fault) then lights camera action! the special effect show by steven spielberg. waited quite awhile. played lots of clapping and remember the films i saw through looking at the posters. anw back to the show, i have to say the effects were quite good during the end. the sudden drop in the structure. the ship crashing in. windows blown away. and was it a hologram backdrop of manhattan? and yes i was thinking about the water so decided not to stand close to the edge. good decision because of the ship plus fake rain. went back out onto the streets of new york. took lots of shots in front of the museum. they even have the model of the subway. very very cool. i suppose it'll have to settle after i missed going to US last year. loved the photos we took. kept trying to do the sing in the rain pose. the lamp posts were not v good to step on. tried running, standing still, and no i can't spin on the lamp post. explored around into the old alley effects were good. telephone ringtones and crying babies. should have posed more around that area. but busy snapping shots myself. neon lights, hollywood stars. heh i want to have a shot of sitting at the tables along hollywood dressed like the 60s. well too bad it was abit past 7 and there was already line of security guards walking behind us. sweepers. finally and reluctantly got out have a few shots of universal again and travelled back to harbourfront.

and yes we were all exhausted sitting at kopitiam. we just sat everywhere we went. up at the seats outside the sentosa express, benches at new york. mervyn joined us. requested for someone to carry me down. exhausted and slightly sunburnt. my thighs were aching from the tension i put in it during battlestar and the day before. tsk. but apparently in order not to fall asleep during dinner, i managed to talk quite alot over dinner. else i really would have just skipped dinner and slept. and sparkling apple juice helped ALOT.

i reckon i missed out some stuff but really thanks people for an awesome day (: i'm already thinking of where to go after exams. pulau ubin? zoo for vic's bday?

2011-01-31T22:27:00.004+08:00

i think yet another round of 3 hours of sleep has made me extremely grouchy and awfully sensitive. hopefully i'll be able to sleep away the thing. the beatles are helping slightly. probably because i realise how sucky i can be at things sometimes. argh i wish i didn't have to be so competitive. wish i could say so what if i suck at it? apparently the side effect from singapore education system? yes i think i'm introverted in a sense. no i'm not able to talk to real human beings about certain things like these i suppose. amongst the many things that i don't talk about. thank you cyber space. the little space for me to at least write the little details i'm willing to share. yea i need an off button for my brain. it's very sickening. maybe im typing here in hopes that someone will offer listening ear and i'm willing to pour it all to him/her.
something to lighten the mood abit. one of my loves right now.

I will - The Beatles
Who knows how long I've loved you
You know I love you still
Will I wait a lonely lifetime
If you want me to, I will.

For if I ever saw you
I didn't catch your name
But it never really mattered
I will always feel the same.

Love you forever and forever
Love you with all my heart
Love you whenever we're together
Love you when we're apart.

And when at last I find you
Your song will fill the air
Sing it loud so I can hear you
Make it easy to be near you
For the things you do endear you to me
Oh, you know, I will
I will.

2011-01-21T23:43:00.003+08:00

oh yea i had a i need to blog about this moment today which i just remembered. (being at home makes me have short term) throwing away our public image, mervyn mx me jumped to 'teleport' to the 40th storey of the new hdb at clementi. we made a circle in the middle of nowhere with jiayi and just spontaneously said '1, 2, 3' unfortunately jiayi didn't get it. we were commenting on how we should get to the 40th floor. jiayi said fly. i said teleport. it's secondary school. but it was amongst many kiddy things we did today. like bicker on the train rather loudly about my 'mx sucks' comment i do everytime he takes a vid of us doing something stupid to get him to stop. using sickening shaking of shoulders to get people to help do things. playing with shadows.

who cares that we're in our 20s? (though not for me i'm still a few months away from TWO-OH)

2011-01-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

things just happen don't they? you'd think you have life somewhat figured out at this point of time and you're acting all mature but dammit you're scared out of your wits when you think about death, the future. possibilities. endless possibilities. infinite number of roads you can embark on. yes the next decade i'm going to live is filled with so many question marks. you know how they always say since death is inevitable, we should embrace it? no i'm horrified. i haven't even lived a quarter of my life (assuming that i do live until the life expectancy) heck i'm barely done living life to the fullest. if there's one thing i regret very much so far is not being daring enough. being just another person, just being the norm. i need to have a security blanket, a comforter, someone there beside me before i dare. confident enough to say i'm good, and even if i suck, i'm awesome for being able to take the first step. yea too much thought would have been put into it. processing the possible consequences, the worst case scenario. this is how i'm going to lose out to people who aren't as smart as me. (i know i'm being thick) for once, i don't want to care whether i'm a fool.

i know random post. but i suppose it's hit me so many times the past 19 years that i think i should vent it out in some form. which suddenly reminds me that i need to get back my vocabulary for eg1413 for some queer reason. and you know what. who care whether strangers read my blog? insights and comfort? yea or maybe it's just because of the latest episode of how i met your mother. death hits and what do you do? last words?

2011-01-19T23:55:00.002+08:00

arhhhhhhh another monologue. partially because i don't feel like doing my readings for eg1413 and also i figured it's about time i update again. before i miss out an entire month.

nothing much going on actually as per normal. have been sleeping abnormally more lately possibly because of 9am school. at least now it feels like school and i don't end at 6pm anymore! i'd rather have the human traffic in the morning than when i go home. trips home should be enjoyable! it marks the end of the studying and the start of freedom! or in my case, staring at the laptop and getting more sleep with afternoon naps. yes exactly what i did at home today. muaha! (at this point i'm thinking i should really get more involved in school activities. i'm too free for my own good)

yep this sem is gonna be better than last sem for a few reasons. i end early. friends for classes (: (seriously last sem tutorials made me grow used to sitting alone. the disadvantage of having a surname that starts with Y) and it's the beginning of the year! beginnings are better than endings! at least it's better most of the time for me. better things in 2011!

and i think i'll blog again when i've thought of something worth blogging about. no, i don't think i'll blog about what i did for the day unless it's epic/awesome. which reminds me, today went to drink good bubble tea with jiayi and went up the 40 storey hdb at clementi. view was awesome. think the apartment is of decent size. too bad they no longer build large 5rooms though

2011-01-07T23:11:00.003+08:00

i think my blogging habits depends on whether i have too much time. obviously it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that out. though i do wish that other people blog more often too. it's more interesting reading than to have a face to face conversation sometimes. because blogging just makes you tell your genuine feelings regarding certain things except that sometimes you still do phrase it such that you're the only one who understands whatever cryptic message you're typing. (yes i'm one of them but lately no i've not been leaving codes around though i read one in my brief visit to the archives and i'm glad to say that i still understood what it meant)

yea i don't have the tendency to blog about my life ever since i figured it's too draggy to blog about it. maybe i should just blog in words instead of sentences. i think it's still quite interesting to look back and kinda experience how i grew up and out of my kid self.

it's no lie that i come here to rant and 'talk' to myself.
but i have to say i would still like someone to tag on my tagboard so i don't have to see spam and to also feel like there's somebody ponders about my life.

2011-01-03T14:49:00.002+08:00

argh argh argh argh argh argh argh
i just read the module info. argh argh argh argh argh
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

and i'm left with slightly over 1 week before everything starts again
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
yes i really think i got an easy first sem after i read what we're covering
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2011-01-02T07:30:00.002+08:00

second day of 2011. yes i'm beginning to miss 2010. it started rough but was really an awesome year. yes i quote amanda by saying i'm in the cca of socializing. maybe because i can't seem to find the thing that makes me go into overdrive, have undying desire to excel or just in general enjoy.

anyway back to 2010, first half was just work. working under rubbish management, rubbish organisation of important information of the kids there. it put me on edge and sadly masu and a few others saw the worst in me. things that i apparently couldn't tolerate when it comes to work, responsibility and stuff. come to think of it, maybe because i was overworking, carrying so much responsibility alone. i figured that must be why i wasn't the most pleasant person to be around with then. second half was university which i enjoyed thoroughly. new people new friends new environment. i finally knew why my parents always told me studying was the best probably it's largely due to friends and the only responsibility you have is just to study. (though seriously studying is only very slightly less stressful than work)

anyway countdown was at my place weirdly. had a very chalet-like experience except with a different group of people. the steamboat, insignificant countdown, mahjong, bridge, ps2, the way more popular monopoly deal which turned awfully draggy with 6 people and of course falling asleep at the crack of dawn while watching some movie then waking up to eat breakfast at macs. the cleaning part was the only addition and yes i cannot leave dishes uncleaned till the next day. thanks lots to em for helping to clean the dishes. it was way easier for me. regretfully didn't get to talk much to lirui, kahhan and leena more. but on the plus side, met up with chuanmin and jade earlier and just sit around talking about the past, bugging people about their secrets. then i figured why i need a camera and a blog because i truly don't remember much about the past except for significant events which happened to me.

and till now i think i'm suffocating any type of feelings be it negative or positive. like how i've been thinking of the times i actually cried because of tv show/movie or felt touched by something someone did for me. the permanent negative side effect from the rough patch i went through. shields up constantly and the wall which i continuously build higher and thicker. and yes i couldn't answer the only truth question asked to me yesterday because of it. i don't remember the times when i felt that much. save for maybe just being there for me.

and i'm sorry for annoying/offending people with things i say, with being late, with various small actions i do. about the first one, i used to be more sensitive and caring (would you believe it!) about the second, because i don't say it as often as when i'm late. about the third, yea i do know what i do that irritates people.

well, should end the 2010 go 2011 post by saying thanks to everyone who made 2010 awesome. hopefully 2011 will be more awesome with the same few people plus new ones?

2010-12-29T01:54:00.002+08:00

2011 is coming. 2010 was good with new and old friends. thanks so much for all the awesome times. university life is definitely more exciting. it's not just about going school go home routine. it's hanging out way more. probably because of the more flexible timetables. old friends being old friends. :D i think you guys should know what i mean. we hardly run out of things to say. even if we do, we're already so used to each other that the silence isn't awkward.

okay so i should do this before i forget and 2011 comes.
new year resolutions:
1. work harder for next sem (try to maintain CAP at least!)
2. don't facebook as much in order to achieve 1.
3. good friendships remaining the same
4. come up with better jokes (:
5. find something that i'm truly passionate for

2010-12-24T21:11:00.002+08:00

asher brook - try

If i walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If i say you're the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song, would you sing along?
Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful.
Am i catching up to you?
While your running away to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

2x huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me

one of those songs when the moment you listen to it, you fall in love with it.

2010-12-24T17:04:00.002+08:00

you know i actually went to my archives to check out how i've spent my christmas the past few years. it seems to be every single christmas was with iron12. somehow we just end up meeting each other on christmas. and oddly this christmas most of them are overseas. kinda makes me miss the times we met up (for buffet most of the time) and that miss that all 12 of us were still in singapore. yep. this year i'm going to have a christmas all to myself. at home lying on my bed watching movies. and don't have to say why are you spending christmas at home? in case you don't already know, i enjoy it thoroughly especially when i've been going out so much lately. i need to have some time alone, think about things which i need to think about and more importantly spend more time in bed. yep christmas being christmas, just another day.

2010-12-21T09:14:00.001+08:00

yea i agree with mervin when he says i'm going to suffer from a nervous breakdown someday. i can't believe i woke up about 4 times last night just to try to sleep till 10 and avoid looking at my phone.

2010-12-13T23:07:00.002+08:00

yes i can't wait till next week. i'm dying to know what's my present. and if any of you 3 (you know who you are) is reading, yes i'm effing dying to know.

other things, more of town, eskimo and pool. i just realised how sucky my pool skills have gotten. no joke. i used to be better. though it's awesome when me and masu won the last game. vs mx (who has his own cue stick ==) mervin and vic. sorry i have to use some msn here. we were pro ttm. the best game i've had. HAH. and yes i wanna go mahjong.

meet ups and what nots

2010-12-04T10:40:00.002+08:00

i think i'm coming back to writing more about my life as much as it is mundane because i really enjoy reading about the things i typed about what happened when i went out with people. funny stuff or not.

yep work has started. it's quite enjoyable i feel probably because of the stuff students wrote in their booklets. finally got the feeling of being a teacher. well at least a teacher after exam period. the amount of work you have to do. the intensive discussion over acceptable answers. talk about other things loosely related to the question. decisions to be made over one mark or none. plus we have to catogorise what type of mistake it is. we definitely got the worse end of the deal. i think we have more questions to score compared to the primary section. well, at least we have yet to go for another extra hour of OT. hopefully don't need to.

list of things which secondary school students wrote as scientific answers
"dun no"
"in diagram 1 the eyes are shocked. in diagram 2 the eyes are very shocked." (dilation of pupils)
"we are not learning about this until sec 3"
"global warming" (for everything which is somehow related to the environment)

they should most definitely clarify all the misconceptions about global warming. yes our world seems to be dying according to the various theories. but i highly doubt global warming is affecting how our bodies function or how geographical processes. (hopefully i'm vague enough about the questions to avoid any trouble with MOE)

anyway work aside, went to support victoria with yh, masu, glen, mx, chongmin on thursday. though it wasn't the most enjoyable 3 hours i had in a club, really did like vic's performance and stuff. cool popping! our feet died after the standing at the same spot for so long. but before going to butter fact, had dinner at soup spoon. which i have to say was the highlight. talked about names of presidents in the different countries, how our ee1002 became a group (glen and chongmin were way pickier than us. i didn't know our lab name list could be used as an aid for facebook check ups.) what shows we follow. apparently the meaning of audiophiles isn't clear to people. neither is tagging of people in wallposts on facebook. and holding onto something with one hand somehow makes you forget you are actually doing so. i highly doubt they're reading this anyway but you know who you are for each of the things. left earlier before the results were announced but congrats to vic for winning the various prizes! (linxi filled me in slightly)

met up with mervin masu and mx yesterday. though i personally don't count it as meeting up with masu and mx because i see them during work. went to chinatown at first. and as usual our routine no planning outing ended up with us taking a long time deciding whether we wanted to stay in chinatown. ended up going to clarke quay central to have good ramen! which really serves good ramen seriously. after dinner activity was walking around to find frozen yogurt in central. somehow we ended up walking to city hall. HERSHEYS shop plus POPCORN! caramel and cheese flavoured popcorn. the small packet seriously cannot be finished. we thought we ate lots but ended up eating barely half of the popcorn. talk about never ending popcorn. quite worth it though you get really sick of caramel after awhile. sat at a frozen yogurt shop before moving to find eskimo then back to BK to play monopoly deal. i'm an idiot for not putting down my last set of property to win the game. sobs. on the way back talked lots about sec school jokes. llm, lirui, kh. hilarious!

yes my monologues on the net.

2010-12-03T00:35:00.001+08:00

came across this on youtube. early christmas to all coldplay fans!

but more importantly christmas lights...

2010-11-30T00:14:00.002+08:00

okay my list of things to do before i turn 30. else it'll just be the list of things to do before i die.

1. go to coldplay's / muse's / the click five's / CNBlue's concert
(i would like to go for tokio hotel's, 2pm's, ss501's)

2. go japan! wear a kimono or at least a yukata!
(this has been on the list since my anime/manga days)

3. visit auschwitz.
('arbeit macht frei.' denn was ist freiheit?)

4. complete a full marathon.
(so i can brag to people i completed one HAH)

5. finish a triathlon
(swim cycle run!)

this will be continued. right now i can only think of these.

2010-11-25T01:17:00.001+08:00

hello past me. it's end of exams! don't bother studying. the exam was impossible. pray hard that you don't need to retake the module though.

2010-11-13T15:01:00.002+08:00

no i don't know why i'm blogging again. maybe cause a facebook status update is too short. last day of school for this sem yesterday. awesome! but it had to be the most stressful last day. firstly the car project which thankfully worked out well, the return of all the assignments and tests for german 1 and presentation for ee1001. most of which worked out well. then again i'll have to wait for the grades to be released. not the point of this blog post though.

i can't believe this. i miss german alot now. like doing my german homework and stuff. maybe cause it was the only module outside of engin i was taking. it was the module i really enjoyed and studied the most. lessons were enjoyable seriously. i don't look at the clock as often wondering what time the lecture will end. masu could tell i enjoy it everytime i meet her for lecture back in engin after coming from german. for cs i just do consistent work though i do enjoy solving the codes. i'm wondering whether i should go for the programme in germany after sem2. not much details on it yet. should be from mid may to early june. but i do want to go be an ogl for engin camp. hmmmmm. damn it. IT'S GERMANY!! garrrrrrrrr.

2010-11-12T10:46:00.002+08:00

you have no idea how much stress one car can give me. and it's not even a life size car! it's the car that runs based on sensor to the track. i don't think i've ever felt this nervous for a project. but it worked out in the end. really must thank my project group mates. i think i haven't been the best group mate. always coming late when the car is with me and making them wait. well that's for the past week of bringing the car home in a nike shoe box. but all worked out well and god answered my prayers. or more like brillant debugging on liangkun's part. thanks man. (i just refuse to admit the existence of god(?))

on a side note, i've finally had my first taste of waking up insanely early just to try to get to school at 8. traffic's bad. really bad. it's beyond bad actually. to add on, i was carrying a nike shoe box. can't even put it down because i was afraid the parts of the car will drop out. i'm surprised i even made out of the mrt in one piece with the box still looking rectangular. i suppose it just means only lectures at 8. i doubt i'll be able to make it on time for a morning tutorial. don't even think that the tutors want to start their day so early too.

side note, exams are coming again. but it's reading week too! at least it'll be own pace own target.

*geee group 8 still has a problem with their car. yes i'm secretly enjoying the fact that we managed to finish in our given slot. fyi, i'm typing this in lab now. bet i look super studious as if i'm doing a lab report*

can't wait till the holidays come. can't wait for christmas in particular this year. i can almost hear santa's reinbells!

2010-11-05T17:59:00.000+08:00

i spent deepavali talking to ma su mon yi via phone, skype. amazing. overwriting my longest phone call time.

2010-10-18T18:54:00.002+08:00

yea it's hit me lots of times how i desperately try to hang onto the moment before it slips away. how i thoroughly enjoy looking at photos from the past. wish i didn't have such bad memory. my mental notes don't seem to be able to stick permanently in my head until i don't need them.

that aside, nothing much on with my life. going out with the same few people, the new bffs (heh i want a rematch for monopoly deal!) and the old ones. obsessing over various things for example my new nike shoes which i can't seem to find an awesome match of clothing to and the converse shoes that didn't have my size. i need sneakers! ich bauche sneakers! soon this place will be flooded with german that you'll have to go google translate to understand. HAH! ^^ okay fine not so soon. i still need to expand my vocabulary. and the memory thing again. had german vocab test last friday and the vocab is about 50% gone? or so it seems. i still can name the furniture in my room. Ich kann namme die Möbel in mein Raum.

things coming up
meeting with athletes!
nike run this coming sunday!
german oral!
german vocab and semester test dates announced!
finals!
AWESOMENESS!
scoring job >< i need $$

2010-10-07T13:15:00.002+08:00

i should really continue blogging here right?

university is not easier than jc unfortunately. whoever said that? it's a lie!

yes i should be studying now and use my thursday afternoon wisely

2010-09-23T23:31:00.002+08:00

rock band obsession. i want a rock band set with green day songs.
and congratulate me. i'm going to fail my mid terms with my unproductivity.

i don't know why i bother coming here also.

2010-09-09T18:32:00.003+08:00

in school till 10 today. with so much extra time from now to the time german lecture starts (at 8) i devided i might as well do some updating on my life. (right now getting slightly irritated with the fact that people still can see what i'm doing on my laptop when i'm sitting at the corner.)

getting used to uni life slowly but surely. i'm glad that i at least know people in my class already. that's extremely comforting i have to say. but the bad thing is with independence plus my laziness, i suppose it's only inevitable that i'm slacking more than desired. programming is keeping me going oddly. woke up one day to understand mesh currents and node voltages. (but i still think i should be good friends with my application of electrical engineering textbook) i enjoy how a night of good sleep can make me smarter. feels like j2 year when i somehow managed to understand all the chemistry and physics. but either way i'm going to work my ass off to make sure that i'm unstoppable.

erm and i suppose uni life is about going out after school on fridays and meeting people over the weekends. that's what's been up with my weekends which were supposed to be for tutorials and mugging and sleeping. nevertheless i enjoy the company thoroughly. looking forward to the coming weekend actually. i'm gonna be meeting so many people that i think i might be free the following weekend. ironically that weekend will mark the start of recess week. i desperately need to catch up on my math tutorials.

2010-08-30T23:48:00.002+08:00

it's imprinted in my mind. deep in my mind.
i'd like to forget about it
but it won't go away
so i reckon that's just how it is

2010-08-29T13:43:00.001+08:00

seriously i don't know what am i doing. i should be doing tutorials and working my hardest to make sure that i won't slip. shit man. seriously what am i doing. i think i might be losing myself.

2010-08-28T00:39:00.003+08:00

guten tag! i think when i've learnt more in german i'll end up typing some blog posts in german.

anyway nothing much to blog about besides today's outing to st games. 24bucks is not worth it. but playing rock band was good. i've found my addiction for rhythm games. first pop n music then o2jam then this. awesome. and semester just started. why? playnation D:

2010-08-21T23:53:00.003+08:00

back from cnblue. it's quite good in general because the seats were good (compared to SIS but obviously not the best in UCC) the stage was good the sound system was good and the best of all the band was fantastic. really quite brilliant. loved yonghwa's english. actually they can speak english quite well. chilli crab, singapore, are you ready? CNBlue has a schedule for chilli crab. so cute. i wished i could get a hug from them or something. now i'm jealous of the people in CAT2. wait till they get more famous, there will probably be no chance for an autograph even if you bought tics to their showcase. anyway they played intro, let's go crazy, love revolution, i'm a loner, love light, i'm a loner remix, one time, now or never, love. if i remember correctly that is. got 178 shots within 1.5 hour and 5vids. trying to post the vids on facebook. (i should feedback that their video uploader sucks to the max and that they should collaborate with youtube) oh yea just remembered a funny moment during the QnA. seonyunshidae! yonghwa stopped dead with a smile. agony? and jungshin chingu! avatar! jungshin smiled. what's the advantage of being famous? we got married! and yonghwa laughed then explained to minhyuk and jonghyun what we were saying

saranghamnida. <3
Burning.Lovely.Untouchable.Emotional

2010-08-21T13:41:00.001+08:00

in less than 2 hours i'll be watching cnblue. is it weird that i don't really feel excited? i seriously should get more in touch with my emotions.

anyways will update more later.

2010-08-17T19:37:00.002+08:00

i just realised i skipped july totally.

and i'm at the point that i'm frustrated that i'm not as independent as i want to be. i don't like to be alone. it makes me feel very vulnerable. to avoid being friendless on the first meeting when i'm sure alot of people will bring their friends. since when did i become crippled?

yea i can't believe they found out how i turn red and how easily i turn red so quickly. there should be a remote control to parts of your body.

2010-08-14T12:54:00.002+08:00

you know what. i really think this place will be just my occasional drop by spot. i don't even visit it anymore when i come online. but i do enjoy reading what i typed when i was 13. how i used to type how i used to complain about what i think are trivial things. somehow we all just get over that stage and find it absolutely hilarious when we look back at it.

anyway just a simple update on my life. went for a couple of more camps and really was living out of a bag the past few months after i ended work. first engin camp, a week of rest, cac camp, redang, "rest another week" more like getting all the admin work done, korea with em, meet up with romamah quite a lot of times, oweek, school. i would say my break after work doesn't seem to be much of a break. or at least in my definition. i would prefer more time at home to just not think about anything and enjoy carefree moments.

i'm not too sure what to expect for the road ahead especially the one i'm on now. i'm worried that i'll lose the connection i have with close friends when we don't meet up as often. i'm worried that i won't be able to open up to people in my tutorial classes. i'm worried that i'll have an awful school life for the next 4 years. but then shouldn't i be pass the stage of able to make friends and open up? personally i'm not too sure either. i suppose only time unravel what's ahead.

2010-06-23T10:17:00.002+08:00

seriously there comes this time when you want to blog about something deep and meaningful. i suppose 1984 made me do that. don't know whether i wrote it or typed it. now coldplay's exhibit wall is making me do it again. (highly recommend to go there if you like to look at interesting things)

really thinking about making a list of things i want to do in life.
before i lose myself halfway again. no goals or anything.

and really having tons of fun with my og online. stirring shit, making shit, saboing people. alot of other rubbish. it's been so long since i had such an online conversation.

2010-06-20T11:00:00.003+08:00

this is unbelievable. i'm typing without looking at the typing space while watching youtube. and yea engin camp is over already D:. and i'm seriously suffering from post camp syndrome again. and then i was reading my previous posts of orientation. and totally forgot the prank calls og2 did to the other ogls last year. miss eating dinner with them now that i come to think of it

anyway back to engin camp. thanks much to the ogls and councillors with all the fun during the camp. and i totally felt dead after the entire camp that i slept 12 hours last night. so first thing first, to take note and record the things i've done (prevent short term memory) increibly the four of us who signed up together got into the same og together. honestly didn't know what to feel about it. my limited social circle. but extremely comforting. met up with the rest of the group on a stormy rainy cold morning. played the usual games, animal, mrt, dongtak and a couple of new games.add more games to my list. got caught to do the yog dance with masu along with other people. played lotsa other games and i'm really really sorry for mervin who had to piggy back me. and who would have ever thought we would have to volunteer to get taupok. plasticine, spider web, balancing. after lunch had dirty games. i'm surprised i didn't get rashes from all the stuff they made us touch. slime, sauces, disgusting egg things, twister, rolling and aiming practically blind, millipedes. after cleaning up and stuff had to go have our first meeting with the sp. erm i swear to god eye contact makes things more awkward. and thanks mervin for sitting very quietly beside us and not making us do weird things. managed to talk like crazy through the entire thing in pitch black darkness before going back for mass dance. after which stayed up till 3+ to have HTHT but turned out to be not very HTH. dug up things from shing and steven as a bonus though.

woke up after 3 hours of sleep to go for yet rag making session through games and stuff another mass dance session (seriously we don't have a single dance fibre in us) then lunch at a relatively dry table when we kept stoning. after which me and wenqin quite reluctantly changed into swimming attire to play pool games in the freezing pool. really freezing we were both chattering so badly. and for the first time i sat on someone's shoulders. it's effing uncomfortable. i prefer my usual spot at the bottom. think i might have potentially done serious damage to mervin's head. sorry! then changed and went back to rh to get ready for another sp session and mystery night. went dead asleep that scared em and shiyun cause they couldn't wake me up. sp session was interesting with pocky and line of destiny and don't know what other crap which shing came up with. yea then the most interesting part was mystery night. yuan hong seriously enjoyed watching me freaking out i think. not to mention swear. yes i sweared damn loudly somemore. then had supper and the start of story questions.

woke up again at 6+ another 3-hour-sleep. seriously the hostel light is damn good. it wakes you up in an instant. and amazingly em's always the one that wakes us up. went to assemble at EA feeling super shagged from the previous day. played the guess how many people stand up game thank goodness i had my wallet. slept more on the bus to sentosa. played the whacking people game. now i regret myself for being so stubborn. the number of bruises has become a record high. lots of dunking and stuff throughout the day. i burnt my nose as an added bonus. back to nus to prep for sp night. really regret the bruising then. it was more awkward without the blindfold. argh argh argh. somemore got called up on stage to answer questions == after which went back to rh to play psychiatrist. very fun to see the ogls suboing each other. and the other 5 just trying to figure out everything else. and seriously our og is so clean. moved to EA after tio complain. em got tricked when she was sleeping

last day. travelled to orchard to complete various tasks. liked the shingz cheer at clarke quay alot though. kept playing the story games seriously. just spammed and spammed. we're a bunch of intellectual people. reached nus first according to the ogls. but just sat there and lagged watching super junior etc. and just didn't change for finale night. went back to PGP to have dinner change and write notes for the others. like writing homework man. at this one point in time i had 3. figures why i managed to complete everything earlier. sorry if i sounded really monotonous in the notes. kinda need more time to brainstorm on what to write. last night. not much og interaction except at the end when the performances ended. when we all got to take photos with our sp. thought mervin's was the funniest with the exchanging of numbers with chernping. kinda felt abit reluctant to leave in the end. too bad had korean lesson the next day. went crazy and shouted bye to og on masu's dad's lorry. slightly embarrassed also. think might have disturbed the people sleeping at PGP. saw sweats in the car with her og mates. posh car squeezing with people. i think i'll take the back of the lorry instead :P

okay that entry took me about 3 days to type cause i kept falling asleep in front of the com. thank me for not abandoning the attempt at completing this. (and yea i slept more hours the following day than the total hours i got from camp ==)

2010-05-27T21:44:00.002+08:00

i know i know. it's been ages since i last visited this place myself but i suppose eventually when all the youtube-ing and facebooking is over i find my cursor moving to this web instead. and i most definitely have to change my blogskin sometime soon. probably one of CNBLUE? ^^

life's a dud nowadays. i want to be unemployed and slack at home for a good 1 week. i miss my hermit days. i'm not even thinking about the money. just really sick and tired of all the planning the office. basically just serving other people and shouldering all the responsibilities. ain't i too young to be doing all that? i'm the youngest in the company yet the most experienced. can't wait till 13th june comes when i leave work behind and enjoy life as i like it. but till then, i'll work as hard so as to truly deserve my pay (which apparently is very good compared to other jobs that i could have been working in) work seriously lost the fun. that's why it's called work i suppose. miss the company i got the first 3 months, (erhem erhem) and the much lighter workload. stupid goddammit holiday programmes and kiasu parents.

life should be about butter waffles, blue sky, music and love.

( i have a good mind of bringing more life to this place. stay tuned. )

2010-05-19T21:44:00.003+08:00

hmm i should make a birthday list again right? haha

1. iphone/itouch (no one is gonna get this for me but i'll put it down anyways)
2. cnblue related things (i'm digging them)
3. 2pm
4. more graphic Ts
5. anything of practical use to me. ie. a new pair of sneaks

2010-05-05T10:35:00.002+08:00

probably no one comes to read anymore. but then again. no one really reads blogs anymore besides the famous or more like infamous ones.

beginning to realise how distant i can be. having no contact or anything with anyone and i'll still be fine with it. for example during study break staying at home for a good 3 weeks before finally stepping out of the house to get some stationery. found myself feeling slightly claustrophobic. maybe cause i'm too used to being stuck in my own word. yes yes i should go out more often. and i'm most definitely going to leave the job soon. i need more free time.

hmmmmm. listening to breakfast with muse. amazingly muse hasn't been taken as a name for a band then. it's such an obvious word. too much expectation to live up to with the name. and the most appropriate people got the name.

and yes i'm still miserable that tokio hotel came without a concert. 2 years of waiting for them to come over to this side of the world. sighhhhhh.

2010-04-10T23:23:00.002+08:00

Diary of a reformed elitist

I AM as Rafflesian/Raffles Girls' School (RGS)/'elite' as they come. My father was a Raffles Institution boy; I went through Raffles Girls' Primary School (RGPS), RGS, then Raffles Junior College, then on to the National University of Singapore, boarding at Raffles Hall. My sisters went through much the same route. My little girls are in RGPS.

I recognise the syndrome Ms Sandra Leong talks about ('Scoring high in grades but not in values', last Saturday). I live it, breathe it. Most of my friends are like me, graduates. Most of us live in landed property, condominiums or minimally, executive condos or five-room flats. None of us talks about making ends meet, or how we must turn down medical treatment for our aged parents because we cannot find the money.

But I will add to her essay: that those traits, that aura is not unique to RGS girls. It resonates within a social group, and its aspirants, the well educated or well endowed. I hang out with so many, I have stories by the barrel.

- My doctor friend, non-RGS and one would even say anti-RGS, was shocked when she found out how many As I got in my A levels, since I opted to do an arts degree. In her words, 'I thought all arts people were dumb, that is why they go to arts'. Her own family boasts only doctors and lawyers - she said they would never contemplate any other profession - and by implication, all other professions are below those two.

- A church-mate who lived in a landed property in District 10 - definitely not an RGS girl, and I venture to guess, not even a graduate - once, in all sincerity and innocence, prayed for all those who had to take public transport and live in HDB flats, for God to give them strength to bear these trials.

- Another friend, also non-RGS and a non-graduate, shudders when she recounts the few months she lived in an HDB flat. And that was a five-room flat. Imagine the culture shock if she had lived in a three-room flat.

I continue to meet people who never visit hawker centres, who wonder why the poor people do not work harder to help themselves, who fret if their children do not get into the Gifted Education Programme (reserved for the top 1 per cent of nine-year-olds).

The pattern repeats itself in the next generation. When my 11-year-old had to go on a 'race' around Singapore, using only public transport, the teacher asked for a show of hands on how many had never taken public transport (bus and MRT) before. In a class of 30, five raised their hands. I think if the teacher had asked for those who had taken public transport fewer than 10 times in their young lives, the number would have more than doubled or tripled.

Many of us live in ivory towers. I know I did. I used to think Singapore was pretty much 'it' all - a fantastic meritocracy that allowed an 'HDB child' from a non-graduate family to make it. I boasted about our efficiency - 'you can emerge from your plane and be out in 10 minutes' - and so on.

It was not that I thought little of the rest of the world or other people; it was that I was so ensconced in my cocoon, I just thought little of anything outside my own zone. 'Snow? Yes, nice.' 'Starvation in Ethiopia? Donate $50.' The wonders of the world we lived in, the sufferings and joys of those who shared this earth were just academic knowledge to me, voraciously devoured for my essays or to hold intelligent conversations at dinner parties.

Then I lived in China for seven years. I looked on in amazement as the skinny tree trunk in front of my yard blossomed and bore pomegranates when spring thawed the ground. And marvelled at the lands that spread east, west, north and south of me as we drove and drove and drove, and never ended. I became friends and fans of colleagues and other Chinese nationals, whom so many Singapore friends had warned me to be wary of.

I realised it was not the world and other people who were limited in their intellect, in their determination, in their resourcefulness; it was me and my world views which were limited. I also know full well that if I had stayed in Singapore, in my cushy job, comfortable in my Bukit Timah home, I would have remained the same - self-sufficient. I had always believed that if I put my mind to it, I could achieve anything. For example, I used to look at sick people and root: 'Fight with all your willpower, and you will recover.' And when they did not, I'd think they had failed themselves. I, like Ms Leong, believed 'mental dexterity equated strength of character and virtue'.

But those years in China taught me terrible lessons on loneliness. I learnt that money (an expatriate pay package) and brains (suitcases of books) did not make me happier than my maid who cycled home to her family every night in minus 20 deg C on icy roads to a dinner of rice and vegetables. The past few years, I have known devastating loss and grief so deep I woke up in the morning and wondered how the sun could still shine and people could go on with their lives.

And so perhaps I have learnt the humility I lacked. Humility about how small I am in the whole schema of things. About how helpless I truly stand, with my intellect in my hands, with my million-dollar roof over my head. To remember, in the darkest valleys of my journey, it was not Ayn Rand or other Booker list authors who lifted me, but the phone calls, the kindness of strangers, that made each day a little less bleak.

And perhaps finally, to really see other people, and understand - not deflect, nor reflect their anger and viewpoints, but see their shyness, pain, struggles, joys. Just because I was 'fortunate enough' to have trawled the bottom levels. And perhaps that is the antidote to the oft unwitting elitism so many of us carry with us.

Got this from straits times online

Please tell the boss of Global Edu to read this.

maybe he can finally stop being so elitist and start thinking about how the hell his daughters are going to survive in the corporate world out there.

2010-04-02T12:58:00.002+08:00

i reckon i'm on a reminiscing spree. recently thought about a book i read about 4 years ago? night. and i think i'll borrow it again. and i'm watching 101 dalmations on youtube.

recent reads:
life of pi
nineteen eighty four
the reader
trying wuthering heights.

i miss 2 dimensional animation. good ol' disney animation films.

2010-03-22T22:01:00.002+08:00

i'm deciding whether to continue blogging. no time + don't really feel like. maybe i should just continue for the sake of my future looking back process.

work these days are boring BORING
monday makes me wanna quit i have to admit. as much as i enthuse myself to work more and deserve what i earn. feel like dying when there is absolutely nothing to do. i should have accumulated things so that i complete during mondays. mondays are horrid because there is bloody one class with one student. we should just close on mondays instead of wasting electricity.
but on the plus side, i managed to hold $6000++ in cash. money face. too bad it ain't mine.

ermmmmmm nothing much really. just work work work. scholarship rushing. work work work. apps payment. work work work. i don't think i'll get scholarships just cause i ain't a leader. i meant my cert doesn't say that. i reckon i can be one. just that i'm so indifferent that i wouldn't even care about the project.

watched HAARP on my offday on sat. awesome. i would do the british accent thing right now and say... bringing live concerts with me in my shuffle. life's good with music.

2010-03-02T21:08:00.001+08:00

WAR IS PEACE, FREEDOM IS SLAVERY, and IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH.

the world is crumbling and held up by insanity of ever changing past. the past is the future.

nineteen-eighty four.

2010-02-08T01:00:00.002+08:00

what should have been our stage.
towers of muse.
what if the blocks close on the members.

2010-02-04T16:14:00.007+08:00

muse was awesome. really. even while listening to their songs you can get high. watching them play live is even better. it was one hell of a wait but definitely worth it.

BIG NIGHT OUT 2010
line up was saosin first followed by rise against. then muse.

met up with lots of people for the concert. (which was definitely good because everyone was a muse fan lots of energy eventhough we didn't get the best view) wanted to get merch before going in but the queue suddenly moved so quickly ran to meet the rest without anything. sound check till about 7:10 before SAOSIN came out. tried moshing with other people but figured everyone was taller than us or tall enough to block my view. fancy me saying that. the plus side of sitting. you get really good view but you feel awfully odd when you try to go full out headbanging and jiving to the music. so back to the concert. SAOSIN, 2.5 out of 5? not fans of them. don't think i'll ever be. they sound similar to madina lake. moshed about and kinda got a bit fedup with the horrible view and sweaty people. next sound check lasted till about 8:15? went out with zhixin to see whether could get some merch. which thankfully i did especially a shirt. finally after 3 missed opportunities, i got a shirt. what's more it's muse! rise against's frontman was sick. moment he came out he started swinging the mic. liked the energy they were giving. but too bad music was so so. they did an acoustic set which i recorded . (on facebook already) yea and we all stood at the back since the view of the stage was better. not much moshing.

yes muse muse muse. their name describes them perfectly. loved the LED screens. hate that they didn't play butterflies and hurricanes and that they only played for about 1+ hour. you could tell everyone was getting quite tired of waiting for them but when they came out with uprising and the awesome backdrop by the LED screens, it was worth it. i did mention that it's a drug? a high you can't get from anything. everyone were there for them. you could tell. they truly live up to their name of being one of the best live bands. (they're now officially tied with coldplay on my list) and as usual, i wished i looked at them more than the screens but in mosh pit. (they should slant the mosh pit so that everyone at the back can see but well, stadium not concert hall) they were there in the flesh. i didn't want them to end. don't end don't end. sunburn was good. i always wonder how his fingers manage to play all those notes. downright genius. of course chris and dom just made it clear that they're equally talented in their instruments seriously the way they jam. awesome band. awesome show. awesome night.

SETLIST

Uprising
Supermassive Black Hole
Map of the Problematique
Resistance
Interlude
Hysteria
Stockholm Syndrome+ War Within A Breath riff
Nishe
United States Of Eurasia
Sunburn
Helsinki Jam
Undisclosed Desires
MK Ultra
Starlight
Time Is Running Out
Unnatural Selection
Encore:
Exogenesis: Symphony, Part 1: Overture
Plug In Baby
Knights of Cydonia

supermassive blackhole is unique

i'll wait a thousand years just to see you smile again.

2010-01-28T23:12:00.001+08:00

watch this space for

MUSE

2010-01-16T21:11:00.003+08:00

hmmmm probably going to update about the green day concert i went with fann on thursday. haven't really looked at the photos i took in detail and probably won't until i get them onto facebook.

it was not as good as coldplay though better in terms of audience interaction. they brought about 6 - 7 concert goers up to help them with the show. the few that really stood out were the girl who got a peck on her hand by BJ and was from the area we were standing at and this hardcore green haired fan who rocked out the entire song of longview. honestly the former stood out because we all wanted to be her. the latter because he was such a good fan. he sang brillantly and got to shake the hands of tre mike and even hugged bj! more importantly, he stage dived into the crowd after the whole thing without hesitating. bet he won't ever forget the best night he's had since he was born.

before i get ahead of myself, should get back to the start of the concert. prima donna was the opening act. have to say they sounded 80s rock cum modern rock. though don't think majority of the people were feeling the groove with them (what all opening acts experience) quite like them in general. highlight was when the frontman took off his shirt during the last song and threw himself to the crowd where fann and i were standing. managed to touch along with about 10 other hands including fann's. security had to restrict him from going further ( DANG!) waited for them to set up and prepare the guitars and drums for the main act. started at about 9 as expected with a drunken bunny (instead of a waltz which was coldplay's) trio came from our side but too bad couldn't get many pics of them coming out as it was too dark. BUT BUT! we did get lots of them when mike and bj came over to wave to the crowd over at our side. bj has the most amazing eyes. he commented that singapore is louder than america and made us do the ole ole ole ole football cheer thing allong with other EH EH EH tunes to help him start the song. he also asked us to keep the cameras away and remember the concert with our minds. too bad for him we can't remember that well. and i was depending on the camera sometimes to see what's happening. (there was this durian head guy who's about 1.8+. pity fann) bj took out this bazooka to fire shirts for the crowd. awesome gadget! there were sprays (which i didn't get any!) and toilet paper shooters. streams of toilet paper. HILARIOUS! there's pyrotec which sounded the alarms in the stadium but think nobody noticed. the sound system is amazing. hearing in left ear was muffled after the concert. another highlight was when tre threw about 10+ drumsticks about .5m away from me and fann. and obviously we couldn't even get close to getting one. tre also went to the place where we were originally standing before we got closer to center stage to get a better view of bj's lovely encore. that's not the end of disappointing things, didn't manage to buy a shirt so only had this rather pathetic cup thing left for sale. the caucasian kids in front of us also got drum sticks which one of the crew gave during the middle of the concert. lucky them. so did enjoy myself quite alot despite not hearing some songs before (i'm new! new!)
i'll forever remember bj's eyes when he looked into the light singing last night on earth.

setlist
# Song of the Century
# 21st Century Breakdown
# Know Your Enemy
# East Jesus Nowhere
# Holiday
# The Static Age
# Give Me Novacaine
# Are We The Waiting
# St. Jimmy
# Boulevard of Broken Dreams
# Burnout
# Hitchin' A Ride
# Welcome To Paradise
# When I Come Around
# Iron Man (Main Riff) (Black Sabbath cover)
# Paranoid (Black Sabbath cover)
# Highway to Hell (AC/DC cover)=
# Brain Stew
# Jaded
# Longview
# Basket Case
# She
# King For A Day / Shout / Love Me Tender / Satisfaction / Hey Jude
# 21 Guns
# Minority

# Encore:
# American Idiot
# Jesus of Suburbia

# Encore 2:
# Last Night On Earth
# Wake Me Up When September Ends
# Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)

concerts are drugs for fans and artists alike.

(update: facebook officially sucks i tried about 6times already! and the photos are quite blur. enjoy the second experience when i manage to get it up on facebook :P )

2010-01-04T21:04:00.005+08:00

after such a long time, i'm finally gonna update this space.
erm many many things passed, things like new year celebrations, christmas, rv's big walk.

hmm xmas was at home alone playing sims 3. i love my sims. dead serious. maybe cause in sims you can dream big and achieve it but in reality you can dream big but never get it. not while you haven't completed your studies anyway. the cruel truth.

okay, new year celebrations first. met up with jj,ps, leena, em, aman to go jan's place to eat at indochine. EPL was the highlight. we kept ignoring jan because of the not so interesting yet still interesting match showing on the white wall right beside us. we got the best view in the house. then left for destination undecided and we ended up in dhoby ghaut. pretty bored at this point. the only interesting thing was that LONG flight of steps we took to get to old school and to find that we have nothing to do there but to pant and enjoy a view that's blocked by trees. so went our fireworks countdown. in the end, yew tee's xing wang hong kong cafe was our refuge. by this time we were considering the prospect of us being losers celebrating new year's at yew tee instead of the usual hip places around town. ( and also losing our student pass D: no more 55cents!) and we even missed the 12am mark. fancy that! so pretty much enjoyed the last part with food and jokes.

followed by rv big walk. walked and bored. 4.5 clicks. thank goodness for the conversations. oh and new principal. after that, went to eat at some chinese place in jurong point and met up with 4b peeps to go minds cafe. missed 4b guys. the jokes they make are hillarious.

okay the more interesting part of my post
my latest obsession

and yes love their autotune and their dance moves in the chorus

plus plus
the only time when the 80s fashion isn't a joke

2009-12-26T17:33:00.002+08:00

had a horrible boxing day. horrible. sometimes just feel like running away and not bothering about the consequences but i can't. bloody hell. i can't even write everything down here. okay thinking about it is making pissed as hell. grrr.

2009-12-15T12:59:00.002+08:00

yes i could have been there but chose not to be there. BUT managed to find nice quality vids from the kind users of youtube ( my favourite website really) of brown eyed girls doing sign and abit of abracadabra. think there's ft island uploaded as well. but not fans of them so you can go check it out yourself.

2009-12-08T20:13:00.003+08:00

while other people went for prom glamourized, zhengpin and i went to raffles city shopping mall to get our stomachs filled with crepes! loves! (had 2 embarrassing moments regarding peking duck and clearing plates) and to get ourselves essentials ie instant noodles for the night. so we were walking everywhere and managed to get back to the hotel to watch the channel 8 9pm show while enjoying alcohol with a brilliant night view. honestly it's alot better than other people's view. it's on the 32nd floor! but damn should have prom crashed too.

so after they're done, ended up walking a good 20 min to helipad which was underwhelming (even that feels like an understatement) went back with most of them back to chill in the hotel and eat. it's unbelievable how i managed to stay up the whole night just watching them play poker. only managed to sleep about 2hours from 9 - 11 before being really groggy and having muffled words.

4th floor life landing. ceiling.

CREPES!

my comrade in skipping prom

really clean plates

yes we drank the whole bottle. got high in the hotel room just dancing to kpop songs but subsided after an hour ._.

yes awesome nightview of the flyer and esplanade

2009-12-04T00:09:00.004+08:00

yep thanks for waiting. i finally managed to get something somewhere to make me start work and seriously, it was way messier than what the pics (taken when i'm nearing the end) show. i had to test out things, use the end of a pencil to mix my paint, practically painted my fingers green and yellow. yea and my butterfly stencil failed miserably due to smudges and lack of proper materials. maybe the next thing you'll see will be a sketch or some pencil work.

so here's how i spent my afternoon,

thankfully the near-end product is quite good

2009-11-28T11:13:00.003+08:00

amazingly i reached 600 posts. i've posted 600 days of my life. wow.

anyway before you guys die from waiting, there's always the exhibition room which is awesome and can be found at www.coldplay.com can find really amazing works done by people there. for your inspiration and for mine.

2009-11-26T22:13:00.002+08:00

okay okay so before you go nuts staring the space below ( like ERHEM em ERHEM)

more things to update. and really nothing very interesting to type about. yea my day but you don't really wanna know about my day do you?

i'll sum it up with a few words, bugis, haji lane, queensway, laksa, killing feet, neat room(twitpic!) , sleep, blue sky, maple, facebook, you're beautiful, msn.

HEH i think i'll do this more often next time. you can link the things together. (: saves my time for typing.

and i'm going to do some artsy thing at home soon. wait for more news of ningxin's creative works.

2009-11-24T22:23:00.003+08:00

okay this post is a result of another conversation between kh and me.

PETITION FOR KH TO OPEN HIS BLOG BEFORE 30TH DEC!
ningxin

and many many more things to blog soon. for example today's 2012, feetkilling shopping for prom or more like accompanying people to shop for prom. MORE TO COME.

WATCH THIS SPACE.

2009-11-21T11:45:00.004+08:00

yesterday was good. finished econs! FINALLY! shine the light on me while i say HALLELUJAH! plus ate at nyny at lot1 ( for once) with amanda, fann, jan, kh, lr, sk, kl, jj. just like lagged around in the restaurant listening to kh and lr talking about 4b moments. the gross and the fun. hopefully she'll upload the only photo we took soon. went up to check movie timings after kl left but unfortunately lot1 cinema sucks so we ended up listening kh's and lr's stories. er the former was suepr anti-climax. yep only went home at about 9. yes yes yes. i enjoyed it ^^

gonna get the latest dvd of ss501! (: and they won again on kbank yesterday
AND!

LOVES LOVES LOVES

2009-11-14T13:46:00.008+08:00

while preparing for As, my room turned to

even the green day poster isn't cooperating with me

and if you're wondering what the hell is that thing on my ceiling,

but the plus side to the end of As,

which links to the 21st century breakdown vid.

love how coldplay used stop motion.

burn the notes for math and gp. 2 down 3 more to go

2009-11-04T21:29:00.005+08:00

okay people people, i no actually kahhan has a ticket for free standing for green day and unfortunately, he's giving those up. so tag if you want to go. 131 bucks for the ticket. ASAP PEOPLE ASAP!

2009-10-31T19:29:00.004+08:00

yet another post of nothing. continuous lagging around when im suppose to be studying. but i'm studying!

why do i keep noticing the guy wearing glasses dancing with HJL? odd.
like the blue and red. hate the tattoo thing.

like the concept. like the song. it's all very me.

yes i like brown eyed girls

should i go for seoul'd out to watch them?

2009-10-26T18:07:00.002+08:00

my usual pet phrase when exams are closing in:
KILL ME NOW!
seriously seriously seriously.

!@#@!
i haven't physically spoken to anyone besides my parents for more than a week. so pardon the hermit behavior.
laskdhjlkhfjshlehwruo.

yes i shall go study. and hopefully i'll stop sleeping at 3+am and be able to wake up in time to hitch a ride to school.

2009-10-16T23:02:00.004+08:00

yes today's fun. not referring to graduation day though. i was bored to tears, literally yawning to tears. it was a different feeling compared to the previous graduation day i had. i'll just leave it at that. alot of admin things to be done.

after that just hung out with classmates. talk more crap over buffet which was okay. better than the SA tea session i suspect. about chicken and fertilisation and eggs. then left for rv with amanda fann and kahhan. met jj at bus stop. he's still the same old guy, the jokes the way he talks. honestly, don't think he'll ever change. and as usual amanda made me attempt to find teachers who i don't know for more than a year ( besides mdm guo but my chinese...) in the end went to 4b classroom and played taidi and bridge with couple of juniors who i don't know. lightbulb and co. janice joined later. not that i wasn't interested but, at this point i feel As are more important and yep push push push. VIVO. the highlight for 5 of us.

AMANDA I'M DEDICATING A PARAGRAPH TO YOU!!

played i've never.

amanda: I'VE NEVER NEVER gossiped about other people
table: stunned.
jingjie: where got people say never never? positive arh?
table: LAUGHS

amanda: I'VE NEVER HAD DOG MEAT BEFORE.
table: HYSTERIC LAUGHTERS
amanda: what i thought you guys've been to china what..
ENDLESS LAUGHTER. ALL NEARLY OWNED BY AMANDA

amanda: I'VE NEVER written with my left hand
me: but i thought you would have like try writing with left hand??
amanda: (copies what i said earlier) I NEVER shaded the entire OAS with my left hand.

goodness dog meat. really nearly got owned. lots of fun. so typical. janice's short ripping, amanda's obsession with pck interview, my endless laughter at everything, kahhan's bluntness, jj's diao comments

edit: forgot. ultimate bad luck person was amanda. ohyabehyasom plus i've never. HAH
plus donated 50cents to some hc/st nic's girls. wth.

2009-10-13T21:06:00.003+08:00

i should blog. but erm. can't be bothered? alot of things to think about. universities, scholarships etc. where should i go. but actually i think i already know where i'm going to end up ( so typical of me. certainty in the future )

fine i'll entertain you guys with something i found on youtube. ( quite long ago but still enjoy it on repeat :D)

just fast forward to 1:00 and 1:20

2009-09-19T14:47:00.002+08:00

yesterday marked the end of the major papers. went out with amanda em fann and leena. and i said i would blog about it. and here i am. went to some hong kong cafe to eat. food was not to my preference ie not nice. had a very good laugh with the rest over pork veg stuff on the menu. emily should have ordered white rice. after that, dessert. peanut paste vs strawberry snow ice. the latter is nice. recommends. though not very cheap either. idiot amanda ordered the peanut paste. it's not disgusting but after eating a few mouths. blehh. what's even better is that she couldn't finish. ended up playing the "who did this/who this sentence is referring" game. when you answer yes, you'll have 1 marvellous spoon of peanut paste. so tempting honestly. at least we all helped to finish the peanut paste. more laughs and curses (mainly directed to amanda) over dessert.

did i mention muse is back with another album? those who haven't already listened to it, you're missing out.

2009-09-15T18:07:00.003+08:00

prelims oh prelims. why do i feel like i'm going to screw it up. maybe it's just chemistry that is making such an impact on me. my strongest yet i'm screwed yesterday's paper. RAH. but there's always the main course. yesterday was only the appetizer. how am i going to survive. i don't know how i did for all the previous exams. the stress is getting to my head that i think i'm going crazy.

on the other hand, things to look forward to. the resistance - muse. or you can just listen to it online on youtube i suppose. humanoid - tokio hotel. after listening to automatic, it seems that there will be more guitar rifts more unique tunes more progress and in general music that is better but what the hell, music is perfect. there's no judging it, it's all to personal preferences. intoxicating is the one i prefer. like how stockholm syndrome brings you to another level, an outer body experience as you truly obsess over the abductor. back to the topic, the 2nd full album from ss501 which is titleless as of now. september is awesome without prelims. gossip girl, america's next 'petite' model.
then i wonder why the society is so bent on condemning entertainment path for the next generation especially in singapore even when paparazzi isn't a job. yes for the good of society, we will all study and continue build the infinitely long bridge to success.

2009-08-29T17:14:00.000+08:00

Ss501
I'm Stupid lyrics

VERSE 1:
Because I'm so stupid and such a fool
My eyes don't see nobody but you
Even though I know you love someone else
You could never know the pain that I felt
Oh oh oh

VERSE 2:
You probably never think of me at all
And I know we have no memories
But the one who really wants you is me
In the end only my tears will fall

BRIDGE 1:
I stay, you walk away
I stand back, watching you day by day
You can't see that I'm so in love with you
Like the wind you just fly right through (ohhhhh)

CHORUS 1:
There are days when I just miss you so much
There are days when I just long for your touch
"I love you" somehow flies right off my lips and so
Once again I'm left crying for you
Once again I'm left here missing you
Baby I love you I'm waiting for you

VERSE 3:
You'll probably never have a dream of me
And I know I'm in love all alone
That's why we don't really have memories
In the end, I'll make them all on my own

BRIDGE 2:
Love's like a river of tears
That will flow whenever you're not here
Even though your heart will never be mine
It's enough just seeing you smile

CHORUS 2:
There are days when I see nothing but rain
There are days when I just feel so much pain
"I miss you" somehow flies right off my lips and so
Once again I'm left wishing for you
Once again I'm left here missing you
Baby I love you I'm waiting for you

VERSE 4:
Bye, bye, never say goodbye
Even though it's not me by your side
I need you, I just can't say it but I want you
I cannot stop wishing for you

CHORUS 3:
There are days when I just miss you so much
There are days when I just long for your touch
"I love you" somehow flies right off my lips and so
Once again I'm left crying for you
There are days when I see nothing but rain
There are days when I just feel so much pain
"I miss you" somehow flies right off my lips and so
Once again I'm left wishing for you
Once again I'm left here missing you
Baby I love you I'm waiting for you

yay double s ohgongil! :D and blogspot isn't working too well on mozilla firefox. actually nothing is working too well with mozilla firefox nowadays. damn.

prelims in 4days time. what am i doing?

2009-08-07T20:33:00.000+08:00

recently i've taken the liking in reading archives. amanda's dumb posts, emily's weird insights. what else? now i'm reminiscing again. yes this life for me will be regretful. how i never managed to get about doing the things which i enjoy/ want to do. but somehow i can't get myself to push further. push to lessen the number of regrets. genetic? mental strength? no wonder my catch phrase nowadays is kill me now. not literally. but.. you get what i mean. recently it's been hard. what ifs came back to haunt me. i hate that i still remember the small insignificant things. i hate that i can't let go. i know it's dragging me down yet i'm reluctant. yes because i'm stupid that i cannot do anything to prevent this, gather the courage to pursue my dreams and now unable to cut the strings off the baggage tied tightly to me. even if the efforts were for nothing, at least i tried but no in reality i didn't even gave any strength in it because i'm a coward, scared of the consequences.

you'd assume that since.. i'd..

2009-08-02T01:11:00.002+08:00

at 109 am, i leave one last comment for that day ( or more like first comment of an upcoming hopefully productive day) i detest studying for the sake of it. yes i enjoy writing logically flawed sentences.
teachers complain about the students not being interested, students complain about teachers not being interesting. it's like newton's 3rd law.

2009-08-02T00:18:00.002+08:00

yes yes i shall update the blog more often. perhaps i should discuss more on what i've been reading. trying to gain the good habit of reading straits times online everyday. though i wish i had the paper itself delivered right to my doorsteps.

i've been spending relatively more time digging deeper to the mysteries of general paper. yea the unexpected advantages of my entry to gp clinic. honestly i can't deny that i was skeptical ( suppose i still am) about going into the class. i'm in self-denial, disbelief and utter shock ( okay too strong a word. astonishment? ) after a whole week of reflection and sorting out of thoughts, i still don't appreciate the fact that i'm in gp clinic because of my comprehension ( for certain reasons) but at least i bother now, yes now, about my weaknesses. i'm outdated and i've lost the interest to watch the news every night. superficial arguments huh? i was mentioning to xiaopeng and em on 66 2 days back that my essays are definitely feeble attempts to imitate the good essays. i'm not even close. well, no point in regretting and brooding over spilt milk ( or in this case not reading widely) i do deserve the grade i got for common tests due to complacency and dreadful attitude.

yep, nothing much going on these days. the world is still the same, many disagreements between people. inequality, equality, the two that differentiate contentment from disatisfaction. how's peace ever going to come together when these perspectives of people can be like like charges repelling making it near impossible for them to reach a consensus on the issue. so many incidents have happened recently, urumqi riots, red shirts petition for thaksin shinawatra's return ( yellow shirts don't seem to pleased about it as expected), our neighbour's facing their own political disputes with the more recent protests by the pan-malaysian islamic party and the infamous north korean missile testings. you begin to wonder where the world is heading towards. really nothing much going on ironically. less than 2 decades ago, the world had to watch the 2 superpowers duel. it's part and parcel of life i reckon, and i still wonder why people say they wish for world peace so flamboyantly.

if only songs where the textbooks to the world, i'd probably score As.

2009-07-26T14:58:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry dear blog for abandoning you! completely unintentional due to the desktop crashing. though have to say that it was bound to happen given the many documents, wanted or unwanted, that were stored in the hard disk. and yea i'll probably abandon the desktop once i have the money to buy a laptop. anyway, many many things to update about.

common tests results are back. thankfully i didn't fail econs again. unfortunately i have 2 more subjects to worry about namely math and gp. but overall glad that i didn't fail anything based on the raw scores. at least i won't get walloped back at home. must say that as i feel relieved, i'm wondering whether i deserve the grades as obviously i didn't put in as much hard work as some of my friends. sad to say that that's how the world goes. hard work isn't everything. but it does make a difference. as long as we all get good grades, it's enough. on a side note, prelims are so close. sudden rush of urgency overwhelms me. gar so much to do so little time.

and hopefully i can find time out to design another blogskin. any suggestions for the theme? post on the tagboard. you do know that there is a tagboard right? just click on the third square from the left at the bottom of the box. seriously, i've got to label my buttons next time.

besides the usual studies and stuff, getting more into twitter so i'll probably be more active there than here since it requires way more strength and patience to blog on blogspot than to twit on twitter. hmmmm. thinking about what else to blog about. yes, the interesting videos that are freshly uploaded on youtube.
strawberry swing. 21 guns. lekuasimi by mr brown. ss501 20min episode. nobody global internet submission.

2009-07-08T20:19:00.004+08:00

i think only when someone great dies, then the world becomes more aware of his existence and his contributions. the truth behind the lies. michael jackson, king of pop. and to think i based my judgement on him based on looks and various news. bleached skin and phedophile. the price you have to pay for being globally recognised. if he hadn't passed away, the world would most likely believe tabloids instead of words from his friends. 50 years of his life spent with peter pan syndrome huh? hopefully peter pan, he will be there just like how elvis presley, the beatles still remain. maybe i'm just feeling guilty for thinking of him as a freak from plastic surgery. regardless, i enjoyed listening to his songs during those extremely rare times. and after which, may more people discover more of him through his music, his contributions and his achievements. yes the world will miss the greatest entertainer. gone too soon.

"maybe now they will leave you alone" - marlon jackson

2009-07-07T22:10:00.002+08:00

i think when i'm old and thinking back on my life when i was young, this will certainly be the most amusing reference. then i'll be reflecting on myself, regrets and no regrets.

er. yes so went swimming with estelle. it was raining when we were at boon lay mrt and fortunately the rain stopped for a couple of hours before it began again. and luckily we swam all through those couple of hours. HAH talk about the rare good luck which i got. well, i'm feeling so-so. don't feel fit nor fat. ( curious how these two words just differ in vowels) 20 laps. z. i should have swam 40. but well just lazed around in lazy river with estelle inventing kiddy games and me just.. well, lazing.

i'm running out of interesting things to talk about. school today was one of those rare days when you had nothing to do. i was bored out of my mind. but then again i should be enjoying this.
and i'm the living proof that singaporeans just sit around and do nothing. i eat air. :D

2009-07-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

sigh. common tests are over and it just marks the horrors that i will face in the near near future. but for now i'm satisfied with staying at home and rotting my brains. the papers were hard. all of them. and i'm sure people will agree with me on this. what else to expect from nj papers? D: i dread getting the papers back.

went out to eat with amanda fann and jade. it was good. talked alot. about cliches and the people from our rv cohort. goodness i had a good laugh. guess what i'm going for another buffet on monday i think. unless i cancel the og outing. i'm getting fat. need to go swim. yea as i was telling jade yesterday, i think in my past life i was a fish because i prefer being in water.

why can't life just be the way you want it?

2009-06-16T23:57:00.004+08:00

was just reading about the wee shu min scandal. ( how outdated can i get?) elites huh. i suppose singapore is slowly approaching that. elites and the rest. and honestly if we had elites having the same mindset as that girl, we'll probably hate that we live in such "survival of the fittest" type of society. i don't think the aspects of getting a job when you're 40 has actually gotten through her head since her future "is brighter than most". not everyone grew up sheltered, not having to worry about their education ( she studied in rjc!) . at 40 you can go for retraining but physique still matters for jobs. so what if there are people who do sit around and rant on about unemployment when they're 40. i highly doubt that at 40 when you have a family to take care of, you would actually be a sloth. honestly i don't think that the elites or the students who studied in elite schools are arrogant. but you would expect more sensitivity from amk grc minister won't you?

and i think if she was reading this, she'd probably slam my english too. but it doesn't prevent the idea from getting through right?

2009-06-06T05:34:00.003+08:00

okay after another break from blogging i'm back. and i'm finally 18. but honestly doesn't make much of a difference on how i view things.

anyway thanks to the people who celebrated my birthday with me and wished me happy birthday! ( the very least you could have done)
notably my class, irontwelve and my family
thanks for the 21st century breakdown album which i'm enjoying very much right now
thanks for the red ipod shuffle!!
thanks for eclipse i can finally finish my collection.

many many things to update such as my trip to tioman, irontwelve outing etc
tioman was okay i suppose since most of the time spent was on travelling and when snorkelling i couldn't see anything clearly unless it was about 0.5m away from me but it was still an experience i must say. like having the fish swimming so close to you and coral reefs that are so beautiful growing under the sea. honestly, i don't mind going snorkelling again except maybe not at the same place. lodging wasn't what i had expected but at least i survived with a not so pleasant toilet. i was expecting hotel nice rooms. pictures taken using my phone:

birthday was good. went to have lunch with classmates at pizza hut. was surprised when they brought the cake out and extremely amused when the staff played a super corny happy birthday song. after cip, went straight home to get changed to eat buffet. buffet was nice. sakura really have everything you want. otak pizza sushi, you name it. should have eaten more. damn.

meeting with irontwelve was really good. went nyny at city hall ( amanda! read! city hall not orchard!) to eat. pepperoni pizza was yummy and of course i wasn't too full. me and peishi ordered lover's sunset on my silly idea that we should become couples. then we all decided to go clarke quay since majority of us were 18 already. went high after doing a few times of nobody along the way. me and peishi just walked down clarke quay like we were drunk when actually we haven't even entered a pub. cam whored like crazy. janice uploaded all the dumb pictures we took while walking to clarke quay and back to starbucks. i could have sworn there were at least 10 people who stared at us while we went bonkers, laughing at every single thing. but we finally calmed down when we reached starbucks. shared another drink with peishi. took a few more pics talked more. went to buy my 1st alcholic drink. breezers lime which didn't feel like alchohol. the cashier was like she's only 1day past 18! honestly i think i look older than that already. 4th june was good. real good.

okay end of post. bet you were bored out of your mind reading this. maybe you should go watch nobody by vjc. it'll make you smile :D

2009-05-26T10:38:00.003+08:00

finished my kayaking course! so anyone who wants to kayak can ask me along. and yesterday was a horror when i tried to edge. capsized twice before i finally decided that i'm not meant to edge. HAH. anyway ended up having something like gross flu when all the germs are just stuck in your nose. and rescue wasn't good. at least not all what they taught us. we just improvised on the spot. (: yep besides edging which i'm extremely reluctant to do after capsizing twice in dancer ( the buoyancy in front kept blocking my shoe and i got stuck the second time while trying to get out) nevertheless, when you can somewhat flip up, you'll be able to get some air before going back down and pulling your leg out. i prefer bandit when capsizing honestly. or i should just get water shoes. my running shoes are so frigging thick. thoroughly enjoyed the thrilll of having the kayak filled entirely with water and kayaking back to shore. it's better than an escape theme park ride. HONESTLY! how you need to balance. and i managed to scream half the time back to shore while trying to make sure i'm not edging in water. and seriously, both times i had my kayak filled to the brim, my deck was underwater -.-

AND! forgot to update on angels and demons. went out with amanda fann em leena and lr to watch. really enjoyed the outing with them. and as usual lirui was being an ass half the time. i'm not going to sit in front of him the next time we go out to eat. gossiped quite alot. i realised i know less that 20% of my cohort. kept going "who's that? from which class?" next time i should bring the year book when going for such outings. HAH. outing's good. the people who i truly believe will be my life long friends ( okay i predict i'll get tags saying NIANG SO TOUCHED after i typed this line)

since i'm typing this while listening to leftrightleftrightleft, i strongly recommend viva la vida and the hardest part. i've finally heard the most magical sound ever. when the whole audience unite and sing as one. if only i could have the ability to do that. it's amazing. and since leftrightleftrightleft is free for download on coldplay.com, there's no harm clicking on the link and listening one of the best bands ever.

2009-05-20T19:04:00.002+08:00

okay okay. another update on my wishlist. since birthday coming in exactly 2 weeks time.
1. white suspenders!
2. adidas bag
3. 21st century breakdown album!
4. that 42 shirt on coldplay.com
5. white shirt
6. eclipse the book. to complete my series

and seriously, anything that is practical. and i don't want 2 copies of the album or the book. thanks (:

2009-05-18T16:55:00.002+08:00

yep yep yep. went kayaking yesterday. was fun going against the waves. but now my hands are aching and surprisingly so are my thighs. diamond position for too long. kayaked from changi to pasir ris. and damn we could have gone to escape for a roller coaster before going back. anyway just felt so hungry after the whole thing. subway ain't enough for me! my arms kinda gave away when emptying the kayaks. oh yea and we had to use bandit for the whole of yesterday. not my favourite boat but it was behaving very well yesterday. i can actually kayak in a straight line in bandit! the plus side about using bandit is that i can do capsize drill without getting stuck. the buoyancy in dancer is more of a hindrance to me. blehh!

and this week's gonna be a good week because there are no tutorials! hurray! (:

2009-05-12T19:10:00.002+08:00

UPDATE: due to people requesting me to post a link (ie. not familiar with all the anime sites you can watch jap stuff) so that you can watch paprika online here it is!

PAPRIKA PART 1

2009-05-09T15:58:00.003+08:00

yesterday went for gp content lecture. the lecture was extremely interesting. lecturer, mr paul ng, mentioned paprika. and i just watched it really interesting. recommends! it's a brillant japanese animation movie about dreams and possible new technology. so wiki-ed the director and watched millenium actress. eternal love. curse or blessing? go watch.

paprika

millenium actress

2009-05-09T04:38:00.003+08:00

sometimes it truly astounds me how many people want a piece of other people's profit. like on coldplaying.com there's been many articles regarding how coldplay IS being accused of plagiarism by at least 4 artists? seriously, to me, it just smells like jealousy. how many different ways can you play a melody? there's a limit to the scales. there's bound to be "overlapping" songs. and seriously 2 lines of melody that are "copied" doesn't make the song all it is. viva is famous and the other songs with the 2 lines aren't. it is as plain as it is. too bad for you that the melody doesn't work for you to make your song as popular but don't go accusing other people of stealing your melody just because theirs worked well with the entire song. it just means your song is not as good. i'm not just speaking for this coldplay vs satriani vs cat stevens vs other-unknown-musicians saga but in general when music is being repeated in songs. music shouldn't be owned and have copyright printed all over it. it should remain as a platform for the freedom of expression. the whole plagiarism thing about viva la vida is really uncalled for and joe satriani, (the guy who currently has a lawsuit against coldplay and i doubt anyone reading my blog knows who he is) is really just seeking for more publicity and fame.

2009-05-06T18:54:00.002+08:00

yes man i got my 1 star kayak certificate. thanks instructors: jeremy, siti and uncle lau. all the capsizing and paddling. made my arms really sore on monday. slept the whole monday night away due to the exhaustion. and made new friends from ventures. half the time they tell me to save them. quite entertaining. :D yep, learnt (for future references) forward, backward, j, classic draw, sweep, spot turn, deep water entry ( my thighs frigging hurt from doing this!), low support recovery, rafted t x rescue, capsize drill ( yay!) stern ruddle, e halt. okay reminds self of what i learnt. or not 1 year down the road i'll forget everything. it was fun though slightly boring at some parts, i must say. yes man. kayaking. thank goodness i didn't let the money thing stop me from going for the course. i've been wanting to go kayaking since my sister went for it i think. not as jealous now (:

2009-05-01T22:33:00.003+08:00

yes. leftrightleftrightleft is coming out on 15th may. though i won't have a copy of the album, it's made available online at coldplay.com. i was waiting for them to do something like this. unfortunately, there aren't any shows in singapore, which means no one in the region will be able to get the album. well, that's the downside. upside, it's frigging free. i love coldplay.

confetti butterflies! awesomeness.

2009-05-01T11:09:00.002+08:00

okay i'm awake at 11am on a wonderful friday morning. yes i love public holidays!

and since it's 1st may ( i wanted to wait till it's 3rd may but i'll be busy pia-ing homework.) i decided to put up a list of things you can get me for my birthday. if you don't intend to get me anything, a happy birthday wish will do fine. i mean it's really the thought that counts.

an adidas bag :)
ONE copy of eclipse
stereophonics: decade under the sun. the one with 40 songs in it! ( taken by my sister i think)
the 42 coldplay shirt. (42 and 17 has become my favourite numbers)
this book
any other coldplay merchandise besides all the albums and live 2003.
a nice white shirt. ( last year i got 3 black shirts!)

that's all that i can think of so far. probably will update this if i can think of anything else.

2009-04-26T04:09:00.003+08:00

oh yes i forgot to update about tuesday. how absent minded can i get? so i'm now updating it at 4am in the morning since i fell dead asleep at 6pm just now. the wonders of your body clock and swinging moods.

on tuesday, went to stadium to support estelle and xinru in 3000 and 400 hurdles respectively though i must apologise to xinru that i didn't do much as a supporter. such a shame she got overtaken at the last hurdle (which is like 40m away from the finishing line?) by a rj girl. damn i should have cursed and swear till she trips. (: anyway afterwhich kahswee, jade, charis, estelle and i went to vivo to enjoy our free cone day! woots. had chocolate fudge. which was delicious and didn't cause my throat to sore thankfully. and long john silver's. i'm telling you i have so much oil in me accumulated from the many times i enjoyed fried food after nationals that i need to run 100 rounds around the track to burn it off. jade and charis had to leave first as they, being model students, went back to school for lessons. the other 3 slackers went to national geographic shop. me and kahswee went to try out the freezing chamber where i nearly literally froze. the wind was so strong.

super unglam but what the heck. there's bound to be one that turns up somewhere.

so after freezing my ass off, went to watch confessions of a shopaholic as requested by kahswee. ( he's a girl inside HAH) enjoyed tuesday very much. thanks guys.